Believe in ur dreamz...

=D

2007-01-19T15:27:00.000+02:00

okies i m busy busy as busy as an ant
but i'm loving it =DD though and
yes i m still in shock X.x over that match =X
jiayi would have gotten the FULL BLAST of my agitatedness....
i mean RAWR =( it was like ???? okies haha
the goodnews probably is that we are in the semi
but then again O.o not exactly very graceful for a defending champion eh ?
haha ^^ who knows..

and yes i have loads of things up.
tomorrow we are having bambarayon meeting!! WITH ROSLI!
with the mia aunty pohee and donglu!!! YAY ^^
whee=))
but thats after dearest ant finish selling flags! please buy some flags X))
and next week -.-''' i'll be like BUSY for a whole week x.x
we are ORGANIZING a flag day for APEX
and X( thats REALLY A LOT OF WORK
but X))) i think i enjoy it
hopefully we will be able to do our best and help the people ^^
and yesyes hopefully we will be able to raise that amount of money
and =D not go home around 10 on wed,thurs,fri x.x from stapling all the paper and sticking the stickers onto the can =D
AND hope i'll not mess up counting money/helping with registration
X)) i'm going to stay alert and TRYYY not to do anything stupid X))

woots and GUESS WAT =)
on thurs i have to go to jurong island for chem/bio field trip
and on FRIDAY!!! MY BIRTHDAY =/ i get to visit =XXXX kranji war memorial
how special and memorable to spend my birthday at a x.x land of dead
ironic haha but seriously i m excited about visiting these places ^^
havent really been there before to learn about the places in depth
should be interesting =]]

WISH ME LUCK!! ^^

hehe actually i m still secretly very high over the fact that ronaldo scored like HAHA 5 days ago ^^ so i m looking forward to sunday HEHEHE but then again rawr i m scared =X dang. haha ironic XD coz its arsenal they are up against boohoo... both of them looks like they are in good form but XD heh u know i wanna see ronaldo score! RAWR! XDD okies enough of that. tsktsk i didnt want to watch the matches actually but X( my brother in law was watching so =x i got distracted haix. what happened to the new year resolutions of cutting down on watching matches -.-''' nevermind xDDD i'll watch lesser TV yay ^^

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!! X) we can do it =))
oh and yes i m taking up the challenge...
the challenge of a lifetime perhaps. X)
and perhaps like what shar says... the opportunity to make my life miserable -.-'''
dang =DDD i know i can do it.. with all the friends around me reminding me ^^
WHEE!! X))

=D quizzz

2006-12-29T16:03:00.000+02:00

haha took this quiz for fun =) coz haha i kept seeing it around X)
@ here!

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

(haha quite true sometimes ^^)

=) tml's the dance

2006-12-29T14:08:00.000+02:00

WOOT X)
tomorrow's THE DAY X)
hopefully i wont -.-''' make any haha sillly/horrible/irko/funny/idoit mistakes
and hopefully i will be able to stand up from that breakdance position =DDD hohoho
well =) today went smoothly
nopesnothreats =D yay ^^
lets hope it continues to be this way X)) hehe

oh and today we ate =DDD cup noodles!! X)
feels xin fu whenever i eat cup noodles =.= though haha thats highly abnormal but yes
especially when its cold, that HOT cup noodles =) really makes me feel like the happiest girl in the world =D ok maybe happier with icelemontea!! ^^ ooh and happier even with strawberries xD and maybe maybe just some marshmallows =X ok... i am such a piggo x.x haha zhng =D

dontknowwhy but XDD yes i like the word ZHNG now and hehe xD it just means =D haha everything too X)) and it makes such a nice sound X)) that i like it a lot -.-'''' okies this is ant's newest word =] hohoho zhng!!

ooh anyway did i mention that the journey to pick up daph ytd WAS HILARIOUS?
xD first -.-''' the umbrella sort of flew away
THEN rachie and ren ran to me =) for food haha then we walked to that bus stop which daph was at...
THEN!! haha the irko taxi =.= went passed us and splashed water and
then the umbrella from a mushroom shape became U shaped haha as though as it was in shock
XD then daph went and meet us halfway
THEN!! HAHAH DAPHNE's slipper is AMUSING XDD
it keeps getting stuck haha xDDD then we kept walking... and it kept getting stuck xDDD haha
okies maybe its not that funny =)
but at that point of time it was SUPER FUNNY ^^
guess i was too shaken up by THAT to haha blog about THIS XD

whee!! =P JIAYOU PPL!! X)
okies maybe that JIAYOU xD was for me!! ^^
woots =D imsureiwillsurvive =)
and yes XDDDD let's hope tomorrow everything will go smoothly and =) we'll be able to present the dance the way we wanted too!! ^^

and yesyes X) the rain has stopped! =]
and yes =X i guess i need to stop-putting-myself-in-others-shoes so often that i feel blue whenever someone is O.o or feeling super happy because something nice happened to someone =x haha DANG! budden -.-''' how do i know when i should... and when i shouldnt? =.- bu zhi idontknow haha =)) haha ant's confusing things again... weird strawberrie x)

nvm shall haha just let things run naturally =]]] RAWR!!

jiayou everyone!! school's starting soon!!
cheerios and =DDD hohohoho let's work hard X)
RAWR X))
tomorrow will be a better day! ^^
and bah my niece's having a fever=(
but shes feeling much better now though..
hoho she could even -.-''' laugh at me haha
but i m worried that her fever will come back again at night (fever always does) dang =X
the fever's been like =x around for a few days
hopefully she'll recover soon
she's starting school (primary one) like =x in a few days' time too!
but yes she's feeling much better now after going to the doc's this morning =))
so i shouldstopworrying =]

RAWR!!

hahah XD reviving

2006-12-28T19:24:00.000+02:00

hohoho =D trying to revive my dear little blogg XD
obsabah was FUN X)
well it was fun because
bambarayon RAWKS X)
and coz we went through loads of things
=) seasickness...
cooking..
pitching tents... in the rain or not =D
trying to dig a drain haha XP
and yadda yadda all that
=) it wasnt easy but yes it was a fond memory =)
i shall blog it another day when i get ALL the piccies hehehe

and hoho today was the BBQ-which-turned-out-to-be-a-game-eating-session
and which -.-''' not a lot of ppl ate stuff O_o

and ohno =( dang the dance thingy is only 2 days away =XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
and theres still so much homework to be done and
and cca orientation
and and i keep falling ill x.x rawr tsktsk

and and and
why is it that its so hard to communicate with my sis now?
by right, she should be my closest kin now in the world
and i do noe she cares for me and loves me
so do i
but why is it that nowadays
no matter how hard i try X(
i still make her angry =(
idontknowwhattodoanymore
i m still trying though =X
dang.
but =( my efforts always doesnt seem to be sufficient
and rawr i try so hard that i feel very tired x(

antyoucandoit!! ^^ yes i can =))
i shall try HARDER =D

and dang i m super scared now =(
because of yesyes uknowwho =X
DANG
scary. and val keep laughing at me x.x haha
okies JIAYOU ^^
lalalala imsureitwasjustapassingremarkthatsoundedlikeathreat
X) rawr! i can do it =DDDD

hohoho sch's starting like.. real soon =)
i'll have to recharge soon..
shoo... all the negative thoughts...
rainy days make me =X miss ppl and think haha
and i dont like to think -.-''' nor miss ppl
hehe XP

whee/ quizzes

2006-04-20T15:41:00.000+03:00

whee i decided to be on a QUIZ SPREE hahas sometimes they are true.. sometimes they make me WONDER =x hahas =))

Your Birthdate: January 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena.
Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top.
You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate.
Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success.

Your strength: Your attention to detail

Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes

Your power color: Turquoise

Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up

Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping.
Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well.
You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers.
You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Your Fortune Is

Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

???

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.
From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

=x i m taking french eh hahas =DD

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention
In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you
You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial
And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive

You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy
You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define
A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles.
Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally!

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

HAHAHA XD

You Are a Purple Flower

A purple flower tends to represent success, grace, and elegance.
At times, you are faithful like a violet.
And other times, you represent luxury, like a wisteria.
And more than you wish, you find yourself heartbroken like a lilac.

What Color Flower Are You?

Your Mood Ring is Dark Green

Friendly
Outgoing
Cheerful

Mood Ring Generator

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Life Path Number is 11

Your purpose in life is to inspire others

Your amazing energy draws people to you, and you give them great insight in return.
You hold a great amount of power over others, without even trying.
You have the makings of an inventor, artist, religious leader, or prophet.

In love, you are sensitive and passionate. You connect with your partner on a very deep level.

You have great abilities, but you are often way too critical of yourself.
You don't fit in - and instead of celebrating your differences, you dwell on them.
You have high expectations of yourself. But sometimes you set them too high and don't achieve anything.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Power Color Is Magenta

At Your Highest:
You energize yourself and push others to suceed.
At Your Lowest:
You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.
In Love:
You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.
How You're Attractive:
Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.
Your Eternal Question:
"What is my next source of inspiration?"

What's Your Power Color?

You Have Low Self Esteem 24% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

Your Birth Month is January

You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can.Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you.
Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona
Your gemstone: Garnet
Your flower: Snowdrop
Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$1,123,950

Your French Name is:

Colette Chapelle

What's Your French Name?

You Are Rudolph

Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy.
Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong
Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!

Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You?

You Are 96% Happy

It's unlikely that you know anyone happier than you.You know how to be happy, no matter what life throws at you.

How Happy Are You?

You Are 21% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well.
But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is high.
You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.
Having your own life is very important for you...
Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

whee. qns. obs instr? me or not? =)

2006-03-23T18:26:00.000+02:00

WHEE! =D I have been REALLY happy these few days xD I’ll be typing in proper English because I am using Microsoft Word and its IRKO to have red underlines -.- and it just underlined my xD What’s wrong with that? =(hahas =D (my hahas is underlined too. I added it to the dictionary! Genius ant!)

Lots of peeps have asked me this question… More than 7 I think, even Ms Sebas asked me… =D that whether I really want to be an OBS instructor and why? =D WHEE =D When people ask me, the more I am decided =x heh =D yes I want! Because I look forward to adventure, and see how people solve problems and how they react to hmm things?! =) and I like the feeling of camp when everyone bonds, becomes a team and work together for that tomorrow. No matter how bad things looked or how many things we had to do… We will manage to finish it up, =) with the help of everyone. It just gives me a very warm and fuzzy feeling and I don’t know why but I feel touched xD It’s like you really do get to see how people from strangers become friends, stand side by side to help one another and grow to adapt to the environment and learn things together. And learning not just skills, but also trust, courage, determination, teamwork, responsibility and also learning how to communicate with other people and tolerate them =) It’s so nice to see someone who was complaining on the first day changes their attitude and grow to love the camp, grow to see a better world, grow into a better person and learn more about themselves =DDD It’s just so amazing, everyone seems so nice, so bonded and they do make me believe that everyone in the world has this kindest side, just hidden =P

and this makes me feel that perhaps the world is THAT beautiful even with the wars and terrorisms going on. OBS did make me realize that, because I was starting to lose faith in this world, and just irked that I could not do ANYTHING to change it. It seems as though as nothing I do, the person I become will not be able to change the fact that the world will still be like this. I don’t like it. I don’t like to see people suffering but =x I will think and feel that I can help one person but I will never be able to help everyone, even with loads of people’s help =X Isn’t this such a sinking thought? When I was young, I really wanted to save the world =) just like SUPERMAN but I realized, he only saved people in danger… he DAO-ed or rather did not save the people suffering from famines, earthquakes, diseases and probably tsunamis xD I guess I am still at the stage where I really do not know what I want, who I want to be and what I want to do?

But then, I realized after OBS that, I may not be able to make a difference to the world but everyone whom I have helped will have a difference in their lives? IT DOES MATTER. =) *BEAMS* and obviously that’s probably one of the reasons why I am SO happy these days =D I sort of got enlightened? *a circle of light around my head* =D And I actually wonder what my views would be if I am an instructor… hmm… Most probably different from that of a camper, but how would I feel? How would I react? Would I learn, from my campers too? I don’t know, so I think that’s also why I have the urge to become one and feel it myself =)

Yeah, I know if I want to be an instructor, I probably will not be able to spend loads of time with family and friends and maybe not celebrate my birthday with them… and be without the material comforts that I have now xD Can I live without them? I think I can, material comforts are just things and I don’t mind giving them up. Getting a PS2, Xbox or even a telescope for birthdays are not what I want =( although sometimes they cheer me up temporarily, I get happy when something nice happens =) to me, my family, friends or XDD or that I had fun =) or learned something that I never knew before =) I find that exciting, and COOL! ^0^

I guess I have a very fun life, but Melissa says that being an instructor is not living in Sunday everyday? xD hmmm… Most of the time, I am having fun, even in school =) because I think that spending time doing things that I enjoy is fun! I have a very packed curriculum I guess, although I have no tuition nor music lessons =D YAY n especially now with guides stuff occupying my only free time plus french =x but I do enjoy doing these stuff and hahas wrong it may sounds, I feel relaxed =) so will I survive? I don’t know hahas.. Perhaps leaving my comfort zone, I just miss my computer a bit =) because it’s really a useful tool =) emails, blogging, sending files over or even msn which do save time! Can I survive without it? I guess so =D

Will I really have the commitment? =D I guess so, I have passion for it… Then I ask myself, what happens when I don’t have that passion anymore? =X that’s a BIG QUESTION mark =)
?
perhaps one day I will no longer be as enthusiastic I may be today but till now, to this moment. This is what I want to do =P I don’t care what happens in the future, because who knows? I might just die tomorrow when some terrorist strikes… Life is unpredictable but that’s what makes it exciting and that’s what make us work hard towards our goal. I want to be a vet too, but =) I can be a vet anytime I guess. Would you want me to be an instructor when I am like old and weak? No. =D duh hahas

Hahas Ms Sebas looks shocked just now when she asked me: how much do they get?
And I say: I don’t know =)
n she said: u don’t care?
Ant: Yah, I don’t care. It doesn’t matter anyway. =D hahas
and I thinks she looks extremely shocked =x Money is like =x the root of evil, have so much also no use… It is important to have money, I agree but =) I think I’ll still be able to survive since I already have some properties. and then Ms Sebas ask me whether I considered to become a Sealsports instructor =x because she says I got the character? x.x and she can imagine me shouting there =x

I THINK. As in this is what I think lol, if I don’t work towards it or do not become one, I will regret it. =) Even if I fail, I’ll feel happy because I tried and have no regrets so yeah! =D I do want to be one. My answer may change over the years, but I don’t know when and how although I will most probably do what I want to do. It’s my style to do what I want =) Stupid, baichi, foolish? =) Let’s just say, that’s me. *beams baichi-ly*

OH N VOTE FOR ZHIYANG!! =DDD he sings well *beams* =) he;s the CSS! I just know it! ^0^

MORE PICS XD

2006-03-16T13:10:00.000+02:00

WHEE!! I AM A CERTIFIED FIRST AIDER NOW!!! YAY=DD not realli lah coz my cert is not issued yet but i pass my Standard First Aid Course XDD my theory was FULL MARKS XDD hhehehe =DD YAY MAN ooh n emily sent mi the fotos xiaomin took so i shall just put them here! XDD

HMMM. tat is A CANDID SHOT... HAHA XD its amusing coz =x the doc evil pose is FUNNY with a pen in tat hand X.x i tink HMM MELISSA caught on cam unaware.. again xDD *evil luffters*
AMUNDSEN!! =DD haha i m UNGLAM but XD haahs i decided since i m short =x i shall be in front n TADAH! XDDD hehe i m beaming like a BAICHI XD n if u zoom in can see my knee with my abrasion -.-''' AHAHA XDD OHHMAN AMUNDSENN!!! missing yuyue but XDD darn FUN WATCH XDDD

OK
I LOOK BAICHI XDD but i m one lah haha chao unglam XD n doin doc evil pose!! hahas melissa's gonna win amazing race n this photo will be like PRICELESSS although I M SO UNGLAM IN IT =D

HAHA XD FOOD!! outdoor cooking! =DD yay man u see my legs =X hahas hweiming is HUNGRY x.x WHERES MY FOOD =(( hahas we r using solid fuel tablets to cook! yay! =D
nice??? darling tents! u noe wat. I m HOMESICK for obs. THIS SOUNDS HIGHLI RIDICULUS =x since i am at home n OBS IS NOT MY HOME =( but i miss the tents, instrs, kayaks,rockwalls,parade square,trees,belaying place...look like toilet place where we always xD gather and

the stores! with our food. bags. messtins. jack knife...

and the bagpacks we din really use... groundsheets. ponchos which covered us when we cooked and brave the waves(RHYME LEH!) n yah cover ppl doin 'business' XD the flysheet XDD the pegs. the water bottles. the HELMETS XD n lifejacket WHICH SAVED MY LIFE =DD sorta frm the barnacles which knocked into mi =x (MY HERO).. whistle which tasted salty n hurt my ulcer =x the black diamond harness =D which looked weird haahs the BIGBIG karibiners =DD ok fine. i miss everything.. n nth will ever be the same again but =x i missed it n i knew i would so i started missing obs before i came back n now.. its been 7 days n i m still VERY EXCITED and still feelin homesick for obs (sounds WAY WRONG) =x but it WAS ALL WORTHWHILE =) nth i can do but reminsise(OEI. hw to spell x.x) =DDD

OBS

2006-03-10T12:16:00.000+02:00

WHEE!!! my fone finalli worked and i scanned XD n tadah!! THIS IS MY WATCH AMUNDSEN!!! =DD xuanie, boonita,yonghui,yuhui,jessie,yuyue,judy,wushuang on the back row! sophia, jeslyn, YOURS TRULY, hweiming,Ylime,xiaomin,meisuan,huiwei and our instr! MELISSA! =DDD tadah! applause!! *clapclap*

*DRUMROLLS* for my hero!! This is my kayak =DD frm the very start to the very end! TOURER DOUBLE 207! freakkin coincidence! =) my class last yr =DD hahas this kayak is cool k! coz i sat on it before hehe xD it may look old and not tat vibrant but =)) its as good as any of the bannana u see and a very very good companion and its realli strong!!! ^0^

ahas! on the 1st day we kayaked yonghui n i found this leak while keepin our kayaks so =D tadah we put a 'plaster' on it =)) our darling kayak is a pooor thing =() coz ppl kept crashing into us and stuff n =X it even knocked into the kelong! i was realli scared it might break coz the sound of it against the barnacles was like x.x well but it din fail us! =) and it stayed through with me through thick and thin, calm and Crazee waves which were COOL! =DD THANKEW DARLING!!

aiyoyo! whos tat -.- readding and avoiding my fone arh.. tsktsk hahas shes trying to read to us abt hus AMUNDSEN.. the guy to go to south pole? =))

introducing u to my INSTRUCTOR MELISSA MAK!! hahas doing her unglam and ermz baichi action haahs =) SHES GONNA WIN AMAZING RACE!! i just know it hahas with help of AMundsen n her french and jap tuition! yay KACHING KACHING $$$$! n our treat whahaha *

P/s: I suddenli have an insight! which enlightened some ppl XDD hahas i m going to learn rock climbing xDD i m serious k XDD coz i realize that rock climbing is so similar to life! it was isnt easy nor smooth sailing =) just like a life journey full of ups and downs, the wall's similar with diff grips, rough patches and it is inavoidable tat we will falll n slip =x but =) the thing is tat we keep trying! and =) i noe no matter wat happens, my frenz will always be there to support me, to belay me and i m safe in their arms! =P so i WILL reach the top xD n perhaps go for obSabah XD if its not TAT ex =)) i am goin to conquer XD HAHAHAS

TO SERVE TO STRIVE AND NOT TO YIELD

OBS WAS SUPER DUPER FUN!! hahas I M MISSING IT NOW =X hahas IT WAS SUPER WONDERFUL N I M STILL VERY HIGH HYPER N ENERGETIC I WANT TO GO AGAIN!!!
hahas =DD *jumps* it was the most challenging camp so far!! =)) i shall do a recount? so i will rmb it even if i got lao ren chi dai zheng =D YAY

day 1: Tadah!! we reached the campsite n i know i m in AMUNDSEN!! =DD freakkin nice name k XD(alliterates with my name AHHA) i was SO EXCITED ahhas XD for no reason it was XDD waha happening? with ppl bustling ard XD yay! we got to see our very nicely n fully equipped store! =) n got our food rations XD there was like a freakky amount of food x.x hahas =) well den melissa MY NICE NICE FUN FUN instructor made us talk abt our objectives in going for OBS course =P den after tat we did BELAYING!!! it was fun but i got sort of lifted off ground -.- hahas VERI FUN.. n i learned the '8' knot XD den must ask qns de! Am i on belay? No, u are not. Tat's me. Squeeze check. Rope check. Instructor check. Climbing. Climb on! =D budden it rained so we went into shelter =)) and tried out some knots =) n tentage theory!! I FINALLI KNOW Y THERE ARE LOOPS at the corners of the tent but hmmm WHY we nv use? x.x nvm =) but it was fun and i taught some of my watch ppl to pitch =D n WE USED SOLID FUEL TABLETS TO COOK *jumps* it was quite nice luh the food XD but the rice wasnt fully cooked bcoz of time constraint but nevertheless, tat was our watch's first attempt =) it was like the time FLEW n hahas it was nite n we learned abt 1st aid n there was a fire drill =DD i m so pyschi xD when i walked past the bell, i was like : HAHA. later they at night nth to do den give us fire drill. n true enough =.= there was one

day 2: hahas i woke up quite earli XD ahahs abt 4 plus XD n i SAW STARS.. SO MANY OF THEM =) n hahha i heard the hmmm the rooster did its morning calls =D coz melissa had to go to do her personal stuff. instructor CANDY took over =)) she was veri SMILEY hahas =)) we managed to STUFF everything into the 3 bins!! YAY XD hahas n reached on time =) quite pro lol *egos* hurhur THEN WE DID KAYAKING*JUMPS* FREAKKIN FUN!! hahas XDDD capsizing was scary x.x coz i dun realli noe hw to swim XD but i m learning already YAY! WHEE! so we kayaked a short short distance to camp 1? the paradise? it was beautiful n nice lah budden XD MY CAMPSITE RAWKS MORE =D hehes den we did rock climbing =) (hmmm my wound was hurting abit =x becoz of saltwater *pouts* but XDD it was still ok lah XD YAY) n i got dunno wat 'fibre glass' allergy? den like felt very prickli x.x ooh for rockclimbing i din realli manage to reach the top BUT i will practice n ONE DAY i will XD YAY hmmm but i improved, frm the time i couldnt even take a few steps XD to a few steps =) it may not mean a lot to other ppl but to mi =) i m contented but i will STRIVE harder =DD n i believe i will be able to succeed one day~ =D ROCKWALL! WAIT FOR ME hahas ^0^ den had dinner, =) quite nice n resi ppl are quite lucki but MWAHAHAHAHA! they wun learn hw to outdoor cook HAH xP ok. i sound evil.. sorrie x) den pitched tent and slept? hmmm well after debrief and stuff =) for sea ex too. n i got nominated for one of the sea ex leaders. QUITE SCARY CAN. coz i scared later the whole 63 ppl get lost n go to some ulu ulu island den HOW =x melissa was biting her lips lah =x hahas den i was the starboard XD the rightest most person XD wen we went to slp i was SO EXCITED XDDD (as usual) coz the next day, we'll be kayaking to *drum rolls* SEMBAWANG PARK!! =DD

day 3: we started hmmm quite on time =) thanks to everyone's cooperation! YAY n i observed tat ppl's pitching skills were improving =D YAY we started journey abt 6? hmm n the weather was GREAT.. =) most of the times we spent ard 9 hrs getting to our destination KAYAKING WAS FUN but X.x my shoulders got quite stiff but it was quite a challenge n i m very proud of every single one of the 63 ppl(including myself hehes) tat we nv gave up n reached=)) *beams like siao* ahahs but we did encounter quite a few problems =x at first ppl kip steering to the right =( n i had to ask them to go in n it was continuous =x after one another but EVENTUALLI =D they were so gd tat i din haf to tell them!! there were problems but we discussed it with everyone at night n thrashed it out =) i tried to be funni(hmm as usual) ahahs so tat they would feel better.. i HOPED =x but maybe i sounded hmm BAICHI =x ahahs ooh n the campsite was like quite IRKO. =x we found USED condoms n diaper -.- HAHAHAHA =) quite amusing luh n cooking dinner was like x.x haha i had to hold the pot. coz no oxygen n yah poncho was all ard mi to stop the waves frm extinguishing the fireXD but we got to eat lah XD cold noodles with sausages=) actualli quite nice wat ^0^ just a bit cold coz the waves came in =) but we were fastest to finish eating n washing up so we stole a bit of rest! yay! =x n i realized my scrape was quite painful afterall xD n asked melissa wat she could do to it =)) since saltwater is HORRIBLE thing =(( hahas she was so funny when she tried to save $$ hahas yonghui n i REFUSED to put our feet inside the tent so we opened tent door n left our legs outside XD hahas so amusing n the view of the sea n sky was BRILLIANT =DDD SHARON was like so stressed as navigator tat she was sleeptalking n saying: navigator, starboard, port, sweeper AHAHs xD

day 4: hmmm XD it was one of the days tat we woke up really early.. we were quite late =x buddenthe journey was smooth lah xD on calm waters! n kayaking towards the SUN!! hahas =) dunno y but yonghui n i like the WAVES ALOT =D n we always get excited when theres one *CLAPS* i saw a dead fish again! oh the day before i saw a DEAD FISH. with a matchstick sticking on it -.- AHHAA n a stepped on dead jelly fish XD *bleh. it STINKS*oh n yonghui n i knocked into the kelong =( because haix like the day before, we kept getting knocked n got knocked into the kelong.. the stick was like in betwn us n =)) my lfe jacket saved mi coz the stick with barnacles was like banging onto mi, img without my lofe jacket.. i wonder how it will be =x budden I M LUCKI! =)) but yonghui scratched her elbow =X oh den i couldnt move coz i was like beside the rod n i tried not to touch it but i got scratched aniwae XD but very very small de YAY! i was scared tat the kayak would ermx break coz it kept knocking n barnacles were dropping onto mi lah -.- hahas yonghui could move so she pushed us away budden U NOE WAT? -.- someone knocked into us again n knocked us back into the same position =( n i saw a spider crawl X.x so we pushed off again n i was paddling like SIAO with my body forward coz i scared later we bump into that thing again =/ hahas BUT HAHA tat was quite memorable lol ^0^yay!! N WE GOT BACK in like less than 5 hrs =)) YAY so proud of everyone!! =) goodie jobbi den we did abseiling which was fun =D budden HMMM i was like trying out n fell lah. but hahas i tried to be glam n pose =D HAHA oh den wen i went to bath, i realize i got this teeeeeeny weeeeeeeny cut =) yuyue scraped her leg n sprained the other one =x so scary =x but shes fine now =DDD yayn we were trying realli hard to pack everything =) in n we lost a tarp n jerry can at first den jessie n i walked to the JETTY 2 times n managed to recover all th jerry cans but... X( we couldnt find the tarp =( i was veri sure zhuoxuan n i brought it to our doorstep coz sth happened on the way back lah =)) but it WAS GONE =X so i walked another time to jetty n ard the stores' area for 3 more times n walked the behind for 2 times but cannot find =x haha but i saw lots of things =X n oooh jessie n i was so kind to return some watches the stuff tat we found belonging to them *BEAMS* hahas but i felt baichi later =x coz melissa went door to door hahas n i din tink of tat lah -.- BAICHI but in the end we found it! it was with dg =)) n we talked abt day one =D n slept.. i felt really high hahas n couldnt slp luh =D n yah i told melissa sth corny n cheesy =D but i m realli quite decided on being a camp instructor lehx (esp obs) =x hahas den she tried dissuading mi =x but tat was my dream frm p2 MAH =D hehes coz i really like the ATMOSPHERE of camp =D shall not elaborate but =) whee look at day one n till last day of us, AMundsen reeally grew, so did other watches =) its this FEELING of =DD tat makes mi smile =DD hahas i sound young n foolish? dunno. i lyk being young. i lyk being foolish XD

day 5: WAHAHAHAHAHHA! this was the LATEST I woke up haas but i kept hallucinating n waking up a lot of times XD i woke up at 3, 4 ,5 n 6 =x like every hr lidat -.- shoot. ahahs at 5 sth funny happened ahahs coz this grp woke up thinkin it was 6 alreadi den very frantic budden hahas they realize is WRONG TIME den sae: waliao. go back to slp lah -.- hahas so amusing can XDD hehehs then we packed packed packed n packed =D i m SO BAICHI hahas my knees got scraped again =x TSK nvm den after tat i was BAICHI-ing again lah. =x while tryin to hammer the pegs back into shape x.x i scraped my finger like HUH -.- irko we talked abt the rest of the 4 days n wrote hmmm a combined'journal'? =DD n got melissa to sign on our t-shirts! she was nice luh throughout the whole obs =( she went to every door to help us find our tarp u noe XD i was missing obs frm the nite before xD like hehes. xD i was still dere yet i missed obs n melissa =X weirdo baichi AHAH it was freakkin lah =x wilfred was like: i heard u want to be an obs instructor. dunwan lah anT: 0.0 erm huh wat lor. =x so scary hw cum i told onli my watch den he noe -.- DEN the FREAKIEST PART was tat -.- the shopkeeper noe my name x.x i was like 0.0 i paid n she gave mi change n sae: thankew anthea i was like *JAW DROPS* HUH. n she sae she noe wat i m thinkin x.x ok lor. isnt tat freakki? =x

WELL n now i m at homeward bound ahahs XD i had a enjoyable time n its in my memories now!! YAY MELISSA U RAWK. I M STRAIGHT k XD hahas oh hahas i found out tat her chinese name is WAI YEE hahas XD http://www.tampinesjc.net:2080/alumni/exceltpjcians-05.htm pro huh.. =D hmm i still dunno hus instructor qiu yan lehx =( hmmm hahas but its realli freakki if we beahave the same way =x n have the same thoughts at 15HAHAS i shall post some fotos soon XD it has come to a close but =) all the experiences will stay with mi =) i learned more about myself, my frenx, my classmates n =DDD they learned abt mi too !! hahas i got praised a few times k *EGOS* ok lah =)) but hahas quite interesting to noe wat ppl think =) oh n AMUNDSEN IS PRO, atfirst got one grp lost 10 pegs n we found 14 lol frm ground n had 4 extra hahas =) i miss OBS. =D n i hope i'll get to go again! YAY ME =)) melissa is going for amazing race lehx with hmmm her evil doc action... SO EXCITING! =D

edit: OOH. n hahas i lost my specs BOTH LENS =)) so smart can. AHHA baichi lol. i was like hey y suddenli so clear? n was smiling until wen i tried to wipe it i realize theres not lens HAHA BAICHI =x n yuhui DUN LUFF AT MI =x this wk i onli use 2 plasters can XD hahas although i realize, after a clean bath tat i haf 15 wounds n 2 blisters -.-''' but oei quite good already k =)) its less than 20 in 5 days! =DDD *beams*

Quoted frm chaiping's blog. "Haha we arrived at the reservoir and started chatting with chewyien again. She told us the reason why she became an obs instructor which was because during her Sec 3 year (the FIRST YEAR nanyang actually sent girls to OBS) she was inspired by the place/instructors etc. Haha and she started reminiscing about how she and her classmates sang by a reservoir. So we re-enacted the scene by singing songs from her generation!" AH! so tats Instr chew yien x.x haha xD

pre obs

2006-03-05T16:15:00.000+02:00

whee! den ytd i went for acs(i)'s gangshow.. it was very successful in my opinion.. tau hwe gang *do action* hahas so lame but funni. so drama yet so true.. n yah the crowd was really enthu abt it =)) great job man! =DD although we felt kinda hmmm isolated =x coz we were on top while many others like scgs were below =x but nevertheless gao n mi got very HIGH hahas =DD (hmmm literally as well) oh n before that i saw ms ng too XD n she sae: why, u wan another hug? *hugs* hahas i told her i failed maths =( by one mark n she sae it is not appropriate to sae tat infront of strangers =x oops hahas i sae i miss her, n i think she dinno hw to response lah XD but i noe hw she feels, coz i bet she feels the way i do! =)) but she was glad to see us, n i was glad to see her, a nostalgic feeling? =)) i felt home.. YAY

oh i sidetracked.. haha, budden the atmosphere was realli good n in e auddi, everything sounded clearer =)) it was veri veri amusing when nanyang 'bomb' sc den ac will alwaes claim it as their 'bomb'... -.-''' it even happened when we sae Cedar =( so we decided tat ok fine, our pronounciation is BAD =(( oh n during the charade, it was FREAKKY coz =x i seem to have psychic powers.. they said characters, den i sae: HAHA later william hung n true enough.. it WAS william hung =x n den the next one was tat i guessed anakin skywalker, i shout out.. FOR FUn... den they also din hear except for ppl ard mi n IT WAS THE ANSWER!!! freakki or wat

=x but the unfortunate thing happened. while goin home..we left without reception.. yah =)) i dunno why but i tripped n fell at the busstop, coz have 2 different levels. i fell n knocked the bus. =x i bet u have heard a bus knocking ppl but have u seen a baichi like mi, knocking onto the bus? =x so baichi =x n being the accident prone person, i cut my lip n it was bleeding while i said tat i m ok n XD binny looked horrified =D HAHAHA i cut my right hand too, scraped both my knees n my left hand n theres a lot of scratches on right leg =( it was quite painful luh.. but i realli tot i was ok. I M OKAY =)) but i felt really bad for making the ppl waiting for bus with mi to miss a few bus! SORRIE n thankew for cleaning wounds/trying to comfort me =) A BIG THANK YOU to meiting, gao, xinying,binny,mj,suat n ms teng =DDD esp gao who was so motherly hahas XD luff lahx =DD but i m realli glad for all the 'help' given although i was quite numb n in shock wel.. XD i m glad my nose din break or anything coz it was a very hard smash.. enough of idoitic stuff ahahs =))

well i was still quite happy luh xD coz i din get injured tat badly =) even though the wounds hurt.. but it means tat my sense of touch is not spoilt n yah I M A NORMAL person =DD *beams* ooh ms ng was looking for us at the foyer but she couldnt find us, guess we cleared out pretty fast hahas XDD well must really thank acs(i) for the wonderful gangshow which was full of life, entertainment n amusement.. Kungfu Bustle! but i still dun understand why there are 3 lollipop-like stuff there hhehes although i think its not lollipops =)) the video was quite cool n mcs did brought the crowd alive and i m sure everione enjoyed themselves =DD hahas perhaps this is wat we call pro? hmmm..oh the fotos were intergrated to the ppt veri quickly =D well successful n ms ng saes: must learn frm them lol =D TAU HWEE! =D although i fell n everything, i was still quite glad i went n saw a great performance YAY =D

whee i m goin off for obs in about 8 hrs time? i m SO EXCITED!!!! =DDD whee! A journey of self-discovery? =) shall try to put wat ms ng has tried to instilled in us since sec one into good use =D n have FUN! =DD *beams* tata! ^0^

2006-02-12T12:14:00.000+02:00

i woke up with a fever. BLEH =(

Edit : hahas n tat fever lasted for five daes =x n my mc =D yay thinking day parade was quite successful even though rachelchng (yesh my darling classmate too) vomitted =x coz she had fever the following wk i had n was absent for mani daes as well. x.x yay n we raised quite a lot of money in one day! =DDDD WHEE. n rally was fun.. N =DDD we got gold for both units =D n i saw ms ng on tat day n got a hug *beams* hahas den was TESTS. tests. N MORE TESTS =x

2006-02-10T18:07:00.000+02:00

lalala footdrill RAWKs.

but i suck at it =x
hahas irony of sentence? shooot. i shall stare at the mirror coz obviousli i look like a tortise shooting my head up (bleahh.. too high but i realli cant see the 2nd lvl unless i do so =x.. irko ant.) hahas WHEE.. but i guess my senang diri and sedia was 'changed' =DDD *BEAMS*

so scary n EXCITING!! 2 more rehearsals. hope we dont screw up =)) God Bless US! =DDD

aniway something random since i realized my hongbao money was quite ok this yr! i have *duntellu* hahas n the last 2 numbers are -.-''' 22. sheesh

=)) my dad n i are always 'bumping' into this particluar number 2, 22, 2222 -.- these days.. after malacca trip...

tat time we went malacca on hmmmmm christmas, den last hotel room left.. so qiao! lucki too n it was 2202, den actualli we paid abt 220 for one night. den we coincidentalli parked behind a car 2222 x.x so i mentioned it n said that hahas i was index 22(last yr) n yah we repeatedli saw 2s EVERYWHERE x.x den we bot 4d in malacca. >.< hahas for fun lol.. n i saw a car with a car plate 22 today too =x

hahas so eerie. budden there aint a lot of numbers =x

HEY 3 and 5 are quite prominent in my life too! hahas =D my grandma hse unit number is 53, while my apartment(where no one lives) is 39! hahs (3,5) the few shops ard dickson rd, are unit 53,55,56? hahas den my sis's car is 3535! haash 3, and 5 tsk tsk.

but i dunno y but my dad likes 7.. oh wells. i was from 1/7 n 2/7!! =D YAY hahas budden he bought an irko car plate, 7777. den he named his coffeeshop 777 . >.< but he said he used to have a car 2222, hahas should trust him since he was a car dealer before?

WOOTS numbers... they are so part of our life =) i think i m being quite random today ahahs. tml going to hq to ermx SING =x tata! =DDD

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2006-02-03T17:10:00.000+02:00

funny? i m sad. tired. =x hahas obviousli since i m not wonder woman =)) first. morning i FELL DOWN den i knocked my head on the bus. den ftdrill n i pulled a muscle in my right feet n it hurts =( but i realized if i cringe up my feet i can march! *innovative ant* =)) *EGOS* haahs den guess wat??? i got a splinter which looked dangerous according to xinying coz my veins were showing x.x n DEN i CUT one of my finger n i got scolded upon reaching home, so comforting >.< n i realized.. i m STILL that accident prone =( guess only mi can end up with 22 over wounds in a camp? -.-

i rectified. OR TRIED to rectify my 90 degrees today.. even though it aint the best wiv my right feet.. i did try =D well 3 yrs? its a bit hard to kick the habit.. HURHUR i still rmb once higher than 90 degrees =.- bleep =DD sch's been quite fun! i got lots of new teachers n i find them nice! =)) but my fteacher is quite irko coz she changed seats 4 times up til now n SHE WANT TO CHANGE AGAIN . tsk... french is FUN =) n VOTE m3 on 6 feb!! =DD thinking day's coming! so are tests. ON the day itself. ALL sec3s have 2 tests =( haix n peiyan left 309'06 =( so sad can HAIX lala but i feel kind of 'SAD' today hahas hmmmm

well. tml i haf sth on. den i got blasted on. X( n my bro in law always uses teachers to make mi scared n complain to them. i m sick of it. hes a complain king? even the moh is scared of him -.-''' i feel that hes overdoing it n making me feel irritated. hes disturbing my teachers over nth they ask mi why do i try so hard? n others dun? x.x

Picking twigs is a responsibility i think to everyone who are supposed to do so. if others dun pick up, wat can i do? if they dun feel guilty, dun feel bad abt it, they can go on with it. WHY do u compare mi with them? i dun haf to do wat they do. I CHOOSE to be responsible for my actions and to be prepared. they are also suppose to pick. but. i dun control them. dun call mi stupid. dun call mi dumb. I M NOT. i do wat i think is correct. n if everione thinks selfish like u. then how will the prog goes on? and besides many ppl do pick twigs, we take it seriousli... i m not the only one. so dun say it becoz it aint true. i said other ppl also pick. i noe i spoke the truth. not picking is another thing.

i believe every ny gal also has many commitments no matter wat cca they are from. n we do take pride and treat it seriously. it is not me, but everyone is commited to their cca. its is not a fault nor do u haf rights to scold mi because i spend time on it. i knew i would be drained, i knew i would be tired but i was happy doing it and i chose it. theres no point in ur life if u just study n go home n do well academically.. i m not this kind of person and i m sure u know it since i was young. i have loads of stuff on my life. i do stuff i like. i dun mind benefiting other ppl. i enjoy volunteering. i dun mind a hectic schedule. i m happy despite tired. u have no right to complain because. ITS MY LIFE. n my time i m spending. i like it. i do it. so wat if ur frenz children are 'free'? do they have a full life? i enjoy my life as it is now. even though i have french, cca, volunteering, fanclubs, yhope, sias, schwork to deal with. i enjoy EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF MY LIFE. with these colours. i have my batchmates, my church frenz, my idol, my schwork. i may not be doing that freakking well in my studies but i know, i m ok. my other commitments have nth to affect it. in fact. they enrich my life. Doing sth i enjoy is almost doing a recreation. i knew that i would be tired. i knew it was goin to be tough but i chose it. n u cannot waver mi nor my decisions.

u think i m nt tat good. u think i never tried thinking from ur pov? i did. but u never tried. i curb my temper n keep my silence n wat do u do? u get pissed. u criticized me and my commitments. u suaned mi. i was silent. u said i was attitude-ish. but do u realize... u nv gave mi a chance to explain n even if i did. u said: i dun care wat others are doing. SO WHY ARE U COMPARING ME WITH OTHERS. i m not ur old plain jane. i m ME. i m ANT. i do things the way i like it. n life has no rights or wrongs. i WILL take responsibilities for the things i choose. i NEVER regretted. but let me tell u, i tolerated. i kept quiet. because i dont want a fight. a scream match. i nv do scream at u but u do that to me. i m immune. because u always say the same things. u nv notice the effort i put in, the things i changed. U stayed in the past =( u never knew the stuff i did. the things i kept ... the chances i gave u. i could live on my own or with daddi. i chose not to, to stay to help u but u nv appreciated. i solved my own problems, i deal with my difficulties n survived proudly because of myself.u nv knew when i was sad. when i was crying every nite when she left us. i healed myself n stood up with no help but myself. when i needed u most, u werent there.. and i din mind. because its over.. i kept the family together for 7 yrs now. i m tired just as she was...if one day i m gone, i m afraid the family too. i try to identify with everyone of u, but u all nv knew. i put myself into ur shoes to think for u to be considerate to be nice to support to help to not be a nuisance. but. u never knew. i m suppose to be wilful, to be spoilt, to be carefree but i m not. my tears have run more than anyone of my years. i m not angsty. because i know i might nt be the worse and that i have many things else to live for. i move on and accept. i grew. not with ur help. sadly.

n u blast at mi. for coming hm late. for having commitments. i m sorry i cant haf a boring uneventful unmeaningful life. life is short n i wan to enjoy it and not waste it. i manage it all so y complain? did i ever incovenienced u? i tried. but u never knew n this night i m sad. n tired. but i'll pick myself up n survive yet again. i m tired. but u never asked n knew. u just blast at me. I m not pissed. I m just disappointed. u just nnever learn n hey arent i suppose to be the one to learn? -.-'''

ok lor. =D tat sounded unlike ant right? dun read the white part if u wan to be smiling? =DDD beams. bleh my feet hurts n so is my finger. shall slp n recover!!! =DD yay mie tata!

haha =D leadership

2006-01-11T12:26:00.000+02:00

Hey! =DD i came across this ONE post of someone!! gao shud noe!! =D hahas i think wat he saes MAKES SENSE!!! =DD so i shall quote him and show u his wise words =)) n remember it ^0^

"Leading by serving others. There are characteristics of leading by serving.

-Firstly, real servants (leaders) make themselves available to serve.
-Secondly, real servants (leaders) pay attention to needs.
-Thirdly, real servants (leaders) do every task with equal dedication.
-Forthly, real servants (leaders) are faithful to their ministry.
-Lastly, real servants (leaders) maintain a low profile.

It really hit me. I was really impacted by it. I am here to serve, not to be served. The first will be the last and the last will be the first. Whoever exalts himself shall be humbled but whoever humbles himself shall be exalted. Indeed. I am here to serve. To be a leader, I must be everyone's servant.

Why does this chapter have such an impact on me? Its because of something I haven't shared in a long while. It is because I felt that I have wasted my 1.25 years as a Senior Patrol Leader. Yes, you may say that its not wasted because I won the Sword of Honour. Well, let me tell you, not getting the Sword of Honour is better than knowing that you wasted 1.25 years in lousy leadership. In this 1.25 years in "power", I realized that I've done nothing more than scream and shout at my cadets. Although there were the frequent backwoodsman cooking sessions and the knot tying ones, the only thing I remembered in these 1.25 years is screaming and shouting at my cadets. I don't remember imparting much into their lives. I can remember shouting loads at the Sec 3s (last year) and doing my feared countdown which I was notoriously known for in my PLC.

However, God willing, I was woken up from my delusion during the Patrol Leader's Training Camp. No, not the one that I attended as a cadet. No, not the one I trained the current batch of Sec 4s in. But, it was the one that I attended as a Venture. I realized being a leader is not about flaunting your authority nor boasting about the three strips on your chest pocket. But it is about caring for your members, being a friend to them. I remembered telling the current Sec 3s in the PLTC that we must practice leadership that does not derive from forced discipline but from pure respect. Little did I know I was preaching to deep down in my outreaching soul. I woke up to the reality and truth of leadership after that.

Right now, I'm learning more about leadership daily, imparting my knowledge to train up future leaders.

And, trying to make up for my 1.25 years lost."

=DD "we must practice leadership that does not derive from forced discipline but from pure respect " n hopefulli he won't sue me for copyright.. BUT i did sae its from a blog =D somewhere!! hahas WOOTS tats wat WE WILL STRIVE FOR.. NYGG!! =)) stand back and FEEL the heat!!! X)) coz we are too HOT to handle!! *egos* haix but to do that.. we must must must be disciplined ourselves and put many many many many many many many obstacles away and jiayou ^0^ we can do it. if we want. if we wish. if we work. if we believe. =DDD whee.. n luckily! we have time =)) tata!! sch's been FANTASTIC!! french's getting easier to understand too =D *BEAMS* everything seems so bright and gay hahas X)) *WAVES*

Potter

2006-01-01T16:28:00.000+02:00

There was a couple who took a trip to England to shop in a beautiful antique store to celebrate their 25th wedding anniversary. They both liked antiques and pottery, and especially teacups. Spotting an exceptional cup, they asked "May we see that? We've never seen a cup quite so beautiful."

As the lady handed it to them, suddenly the teacup spoke, "You don't understand. I have not always been a teacup. There was a time when I was just a lump of red clay. My master took me and rolled me pounded and patted me over and over and I yelled out, 'Don't do that. I don't like it! Let me alone.' But he only smiled, and gently said; 'Not yet!'" "Then. WHAM! I was placed on a spinning wheel and suddenly I was spun around and around and around. 'Stop it! I'm getting so dizzy! I'm going to be sick,' I screamed. But the master only nodded and said, quietly; 'Not yet.'

"He spun me and poked and prodded and bent me out of shape to suit himself and then… Then he put me in the oven. I never felt such heat. I yelled and knocked and pounded at the door. Help! Get me out of here! I could see him through the opening and I could read his lips as he shook his head from side to side, 'Not yet'."

"When I thought I couldn't bear it another minute, the door opened. He carefully took me out and put me on the shelf, and I began to cool. Oh, that felt so good! Ah, this is much better, I thought. But, after I cooled he picked me up and he brushed and painted me all over. The fumes were horrible. I thought I would gag. 'Oh, please; Stop it, Stop it!' I cried. He only shook his head and said. 'Not yet!'."

"Then suddenly he put me back in to the oven. Only it was not like the first one. This was twice as hot and I just knew I would suffocate. I begged. I pleaded. I screamed. I cried. I was convinced I would never make it. I was ready to give up. Just then the door opened and he took me out and again placed me on the shelf, where I cooled and waited ------- and waited, wondering "What's he going to do to me next? An hour later he handed me a mirror and said 'Look at yourself.'" "And I did. I said, 'That's not me; that couldn't be me. It's beautiful. I'm beautiful!'

Quietly he spoke: 'I want you to remember, then,' he said, 'I know it hurt to be rolled and pounded and patted, but had I just left you alone, you'd have dried up. I know it made you dizzy to spin around on the wheel, but if I had stopped, you would have crumbled. I know it hurt and it was hot and disagreeable in the oven, but if I hadn't put you there, you would have cracked. I know the fumes were bad when I brushed and painted you all over, but if I hadn't done that, you never would have hardened. You would not have had any color in your life. If I hadn't put you back in that second oven, you wouldn't have survived for long because the hardness would not have held. Now you are a finished product. Now you are what I had in mind when I first began with you."

The moral of this story is this: God knows what He's doing for each of us. He is the potter, and we are His clay. He will mold us and make us, and expose us to just enough pressures of just the right kinds that we may be made into a flawless piece of work to fulfill His good, pleasing and perfect will.

So when life seems hard, and you are being pounded and patted and pushed almost beyond endurance; when your world seems to be spinning out of control; when you feel like you are in a fiery furnace of trials; when life seems to "stink", try this....

Brew a cup of your favorite tea in your prettiest teacup, sit down and think on this story and then, have a little talk with the Potter.

farewell'05

2005-12-30T18:48:00.000+02:00

Click here! =D

hmmmm.. heres a little sth..its made from amateur flash =x farewell'o5. one word BYE! i miss ms ng =( too. n i miss my wallet.. too. ok =X bye

ps: anyone noe hw to place a flash in ur webbbie?? =)) TELLME!

camp

2005-12-19T07:57:00.000+02:00

BOO!!! ANT IS BACKK XD hahas wheee!!! =DD i slept for straight 24 hrs den after eating 8 different type of medicine. UGH. i slept again.. in total i slept HMMMMM.. 46 hrs WOOH XD hahas PIGGIE ANT XD sheesh i was tired.. but CAMP WAS FUN!!! but duno y hyper and active ant was drained out x.x hahas nvm everything is OVER. i'm sure that everyone had funnnnn =DD my patrol did find fun amidst everything!! =DDDD
ok. hehes shud i go in details hmmm.. i shall just do a OVERVIEW OF EACH DAY *beams* icebreakers were quite ok XD but a bit short.. i rmb onli meihe name by then.. *do HE action* HEHE =)) ready?? ok 1st day, saw HUGE HUGE CANVAS TENT XD den THANKS TO DAWN N SHU who helped my patrol in setting up my patrol's tent..thankew lu jin and ur batch of foon yew ppl who helped to =DDD Gadgets were quite a FLOP >.< evelyn cut her hand X(( n got 2 stitches!! but its ALL OK NOW =DDD Evelyn.. ur penknife is still wiv mi -.- hahas den my patrol din haf enuff time to finish gadgets n stuff denn... suddenli XD everything seemed to be in chaos =x coz.. yina said to mi : i must turf ?? -.- xia si ren le!!! but luckili for nice nice snrs to help mi =D euodia n regina n ppl who helped to turf!! i'm sorrie i dunno who else helped coz.. i was HmMmMmMm.. running ard *dui bu qi dui bu qi* den must thank e foon yew guides for being so interested in my dishes =D actualli all veri veri simple de =)) all peeps who helped my baggage rack THANKEW.. (includes foon yew) it stayed till the last day when it TA xia LAI xD but the lifespan was quite long ^0^ n thankew to the other group of peeps who helped in my gadget!!! =D ESPECIALLI HUIBIN *CLAPS* who heng ting hua de mallet 12" down.. i tink tat more than 12 " is i mallet half de X.x.. den GATEWAY.. must THANK all the grand snrs.. *i dunno how to spell ur name lehx X(* the one ms ng saes is ENTREPRENEUR N veri bz.. n dorinda n weijie n mani mani more who helped.. like shuang and nana the group.. who hoisted the gateway up.. XIEXIE =DDDD.. I'm realli sorrie if i realli depended on the snrs a lot X.x IT LOOKS LIKe A LOT.. SORRIE.. SORRIE din realli mean to be SO evil and rely on u all >.< but u all are veri veri veri veri veri chao ji appreciated!!!! X)) trust n courage was fun lahx =)) except for a few hiccups X) den had fun wiv the foon yew guides with die die le (han yu pin yin) n the weird position game n also the fold the newspaper.. it was nice =)) there wasnt ani sun !!! =)) xie xie xie xie!!! den ms ng debrief... =x oli's fall n stuff.. no kayakin on day 2 X(( but hey.. we kinda deserved it NVM =DDDD there'll be a chance somehow somewhere sometime!!! =DD den debrief my patrol xD hahas TALKED ALL THE WAY TILL TOILET.. =D haha.. n we all promised each other that we'll do better n i m glad tat u all did feel guilty for making snrs help u all.. =D den shar tell mi sth SCARY... their baggage rack ta xia lai.. den she was quite frantic n askin mi how ... XD so both of us FRANTIC FRANTIC go see wat happen.. actualli is the squarelash not tite, shearlash not tite.. den.. WE DECIDED to wake up at 4 to tie XD... but got scolded by ms ng for waking up so earli x.x hhaaas
day 2.. =D colours pt breakfast.. *munch munch munch* *puke egg puke egg* XD yina felt unwell.. telematch was quite funn n everything went smoothli except it was scorching xD n my patrol was quite tired -.- coz we onli had 2 pairs hahas n den onli zihui n i were quite loud.. so when yina n kendra were quite soft n even though they cheered, it realli couldnt be heard x( but NVM =DDD u all did try n I M PROUD OF U ALL *wipes tears away with pink hankkie XD* den yina had BAD BAD BAD menstrual cramps.. den we continued playin some games tat were indoors XD quite fun lahx =D movin on chairs and challenging how far i can bend my back hehehes =P den yina realli couldnt take it so she took a rest. so at tat point of time.. my patrol was down to ermz 3 =x hahas nvm.. kendra zihui n i yi ge ding liang ge =DDD den during break we cleared up stuff den i re-malleted one side of e pegs of my NICE =)) n WONDERFUL tent =D but i onli managed to redo one side =)) n i realize the whole time i nv put horlicks flag on =(( but NVM =)) milo baggage rack was better by the end of the 1.5 hrs =DDD steadii.. den lunch =)) twintwin wasnt feelin veri ok.. den we both irko lai irko qu >.< =DD n DRANK LOADS LOADS OF CORDIAL ^ ^ initiative games =D tats wen i realli interacted wiv foon yew n got my malaysian accent HEHE =D we were crappin awae abt the egg n yellow ribbon =D hehe :)) it was fun !!! den outdoor cookin was better than the day before =)) but we still had some external help =)) guess the onli good thing was tat we brought 10 bags of twigs? hahas budden ppl kip borrowin twigs n rags hahas so chaotic too.. n yina n kendra -.- u all MUST OPEN the tongs before u cook.. *ms ong's dotted look* HHEEEEHEEEE =D nvm lahx.. it was quite ok. =D hahas n yay =D we killed the ants =)) wiv a bonfire.. thankew to edna n litang who helped mi in firelighting n being my 'runners' n zihui who doubled up as 2.. den coz of anxiety.. kendra had an asthma attack x(( TAKKAIRE KENDRA!!! so scari.. when its not u havin the attack.. it does look scary.. Relax ok? its nth big.. =)) most importantli, is tat u've tried ok? =DD jiayou jiayou =)) ke yi de!! so my patrol kinda.. became of a pair.. zihui n i made a pact tat yi ge ding san ge n our patrol will be OK =DDD see.. chiehhwee i nt pickin on her.. but shes the other healthy one mahx =DDD oh den i finalli gto to bath.. i din bath on e 1st day x.x den after tat we had toilet duty =X ok.. we SURVIVED =))) claps wheee.. songs sesssion was quite fun but i alreadi had lost my voice so it wasnt tat enjoyable.. =DDD but it was nice n RED N WHITE i wanna CLAp CLAP clap n CLAP =DDDDD CRAFT.. =)) tat thingy is cute but i was veri veeri tired.. =D so shuning sae can bring home do.. twin n i were ermx.. crazzeee? hahas we luffed. den gloomi den luff like siao =X hahas den i luff until cry =S crazeee peeps but we did managed to ermz relax =DDD hahas den my eyes kip watering.. i was quite tired x.x debrief den had this ermz.. MYSTERIOUS bag of embers.. which belonged to no one =( dunno y.. but i threw mine personalli. =D wiv twintwin at the rubbish collection centre.. (: wheee =)) den sit in hall.. den i realized.. yina n zihui the fire ppl for the day before din return the fan =x haix.. yah.. debrief them at the longkang den sleep lol... =))
day 3 bz bz bz dae.. must dismantle gadgets, strike tents and stuff.. thankew to everione who helped !!! =D chiehhwee n paupau n weijie.. for baggage rack.. EVEN though u all luff at mi for my malaysian accent x( not i wan de mahx .. hmphhh OH n mani mani thanks to all the snrs outside who plucked out my poles which were veri deep in x.x dui bu qi.. yibing thankew. weijie thankew, n tat group of peeps around that ONE pole =(( sorrie!!! i have learnt my lesson not to mallet poles so in x.x wheee... den finalli.. paupau to the rescue!! she found EVELYN's yellow tee (: den met evelyn =)) den had wide game in zoo.. n we saw the flasher. -.- weird patrol.. den kendra wasnt feelin well, so she went toilet. den yina looked PALE =S den finalli she stopped to rest at meijiao's station at the crops place.. Thanks for bringing yina backk =DDD HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT OK? =DD jiayou.. den went backk =D thanks hongling n suat, for this beautifulli planned wide game, sorrie couldnt finish it =)) but it was a nice route!! hahas =)) whee den go back to sch.. had orderlies den chiong den finish den wash =)) den night treasure hunt XD den sorrie to peeps whom yina pushed... she wasnt feelin veri well xD hahas den sorrie to edna n litang i dunno y but my patrol just cried lahx.. coz we were walking for abt 30 minutes aimlessli.. SORRIE xS n i told my patrol tat u all wouldnt say no.. n stuff liddat.. but i noe u all din mean it but sorrie.. if we scared u all xD hehes.. CAMPFIRE RAWKED... i'm sorri adrenaline.. my voice was goin away.. so could not cheer as loud as i could SORRIE but i guess i could be heard? i dunno x(( but nvm have gao to ding too =))) hahas atleast i managed to DRAG the campfire item XDD but i wasnt realli good.. n stufff tat was suppoose to be funni.. din end up funni.. OOPS XD but at least its OVER!!! ^0^ n we won the best sub camp!!! =DD hahas ISOTONIC!! u did well too.. we are both winners !! =)) lala whee den hahas had games was fun.. den had to dress yina up as LIANGSHANGBO HAHHAHAHAAHHAHA *hilarious* hahas =D we made her tie a bun like a normal SHU DAI ZI HAHAHAHHAHAHAH pouahahahha.. den kendra was ZHU YING TAI =D we won sth =)) yay.. den finish up orderlies. abt 2 plus.. den we irko irko xD came up wiv a song!!! to the tune of row row row ur boat!!! hehes *TADAH* THROW THROW THROW UR FOOD. SLOWLI DOWN THE BIN. THE MORE U THROW. THE MORE U WASTE. THE MORE WE MUST APPRECIATE!!!! *APPLAUSE* hehes xD den gao wasnt done with her toilet.. went over to see.. den kendra lost her plastic bag with her torch.. den she cried.. =(( coz she was scared her mummi wud scold her x(( so we ROAM ard... but cannot find den gao also helped us but.. jiu shi meiyou x.x
day 4.. was just farewell.. den excahnged emails wiv foon yew =)) den prize giving!!! yay milo!! champions XD zuo dao le... den yina had stomachache x( n i dunno y just vomitted x.x oops haahs den yah jiu cheer!! =)) n den sabotage.. =)) it WIPED US OFF OUR FEET.. but my patrol was alwaes the 'washing patrol' coz hahas all had wounds den they kip washin =)) hahas ^o^ n we din cheer.. mei you sheng ying le =)) den we had great fun with ms ng using the hose to clean us.. den i was shivering n ACHOOO-ing =X hahas but it was fun.. blehh den dunno y clearing up was slow.. den ting n shar got pissed =S hahas but it was for a while =DDD everything was FINE =)) den we wanted to share the goodies wiv the other sub camp but they ran away so... cannnot lolx wheee n that marked the end of a veri ENriching camp =)) *BEAMS* nah binny camp wasnt a flop it was a success!!! =)) it just had some hiccups lahx XD i'm sure everione enjoyed it!!! YAY =DDD u can have fun anywhere, anytime, any situattion as long as u haf the CORRECT ATTITUDE =)) the + attitude.. not HIV positive lahx -.- hahas =DDDD to end off my long post =)) i shall thankkkkkkkkkkkk pppl ^.^
zihui: xiexie =D u were the onli one who was healthy thru the camp! sorrie i had to 'use' u veri often xD hahas u were a great help but u must be more flexible ok? n dun complain so much n hahas try to tolerate!!! a patrol is a team, it is not individuals, u haf to give and take.. k? ppl have weaknesses n strengths, dun just look at their weaknesses, give them time n opportunities to use their strength!!! =)) jiayou n rest well.. thank goodness ur daddi sent u home XD if not u haf to take 170 (: i m realli glad tat u were vocal n stuff n i'm sure both of us brought noise to the camp prep days xD hehes n i feel realli bad for making u come all the way from jb to just do camp prep bu hao yi si x.x but we did it.. together =)))
kendra: hey!! health is important ok? pls pls pls bring ur inhaler around XD hahas i din mean to cry n den make u cry x.x oops hahas.. i noe u are tired n stuff.. but i REALLI stilll nid to make u do stuff!! =)) i hope ur mum is nt angry wiv u n wun make u quit guides. believe in wat u wan and do it!!! =)) u survived.. sometimes when u meet problems, u nid to ADAPT n change, u cannot just be rigid ok?? =DDD u can walk veri fast n i certainly saw THAT SENSE OF URGENCY in U!!! =)) yay when u cant solve anything, RELAX 1st.. chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.. dun cry, u found the torch in the end din u ? =)) *beams*
eve: thanks for comin for wide game n realli sorrie u could onli spend a day in camp... hope ur finger recovers!!! =)) jiayou.. u NOE. dun tell mi u dunno. u din noe how to sew, but u managed to learn blanket stitch, cross stitch, runnning stiches, back stitch, chain stitch, tagging, and closed herringbone stitch etc.. IF U TINK U CAN.. U CAN =)) believe mi. u LEARNT a lot. ALl by urself =))
yina: hie!! i'm realli sorrie i had to push u veri hard during n before camp.. but u came back so late tat u had to rush out ur scarf ^0^ in 2 personal mtgs wiv mi x.x hahas but u did it... i noe u r from AEP n u probabli dun even noe how to sew.. but NOW.. just like Evelyn!! u haf learnt a lot of stitches.. n perhaps even skills which can follow u n help u on ur journey of life!! r u better now? i'm sorrie that even though u werent feelin veri well, i still made u do things, but... u had to =DDD heheh n u did it!! rmb to be responsiblsible for the things loaned to u ok? it is like, u shud haf this sense of responsiblity no matter how tired or lethargic u are.. it is a kind of duty =)) jiayou ok? n open tongs next time!!! but u have quite a lot of strength!!! xiexie REST WELL n TAKKAIRE =))
MILO.
u all did pretty well ok? just tat xian yu and sec ones still a bit eyes got stamp hahas.... just try to be flexible =)) n listen to shar k? =)) but i m proud of u all, coz no matter how long the scarf took,u all shi zhong didnt give up n finished ur scarves even though... manda's looked constipated hahas =) u all did improve in ur attitude from the veri 1st time milo met, i'm sure u learnt loads of stuff =DD i'm sry tat i was the evil twin n had to scold u all but... haiya u all horh -.- IRKO ask u go hm nv sew so must ask u come sch n sew XD hahas.. huimin..=)) thanks for assistng twin lahx.. can u just pls pls pls talk more? hehes =DDDD i noe u are quite talkative de.. y lehs? =)) n congrats to u all for winning the best patrol !!! ^0^
ADRENALINE!!! hehees =DDD wheee i had great fun painting banners n stuff although we spent a lot of time.. n even got drenched buyin paint =.- quite loser hahas.. ESPECIALLI some one hahas.. ting lols. aniwaes, we managed to brave it out, finished our campfire item and stuff... but.. xD do u realize we made a FLAG, WE RUSHED OUT THE FLAG N WE nv built a flagpole nor flaunt it out =x ahhas =D nvm lahx but it was quite pretty so veri ke xi XP thanks for being supportive of one another!! n yay we managed to win the best sub camp XD wheeee!!! jiayou le!! n thanks for being such great help!!! n i m realli sorri to lose my voice on campfire nite n couldnt shout as loud =X hahas *bu hao yi si*
snrs(sec3s to GRAND GRAND GRAND SNRS): THANKEW!! thankew sec3s for this ABSOLUTELY AWESOME camp!! (alliteration =)) n to ALLL of u, thanks for helpin out n stuff and staying up to do duty to ensure we are safe n that if theres fire drill, we wun die XP hahas.. thanks.. it must be hard to stay up all nite(i tried during sec ones's camp) but u all did it!!! THANKEW =))

WHEEE!! I M DONE =)) YAY.. my fever has subsided XD yay =)) LALLAA. farewell X(( blehh... off i go.. TATA.. n GOD BLESSS YOU! ^o^ oh n i realized i broke last yr's record of 16 wounds.. i have 21 dis yr -.- i wonder how come someone can be SO ACCIDENT PRONE -.- hopeless ant XD aniwae JIAYOU PEEPS!!!! =D i m happie n hyper now... kinda miss camp x.x

hmm

2005-12-06T13:52:00.000+02:00

i m quite tired.. X( sleepin at 5 and waking up at 8.. =X hahas weirdo ant.. sheesh i feel a fever coming.. migraine.. IRKO.. nvm lalala oh!! yay.. i got mt dolphin!! X)) kawaii neh! den shar n i plannin to get same bag for camp XD hahas.. =D at least now, milo scarf is 80% completed, horlicks 65%... sheesh.. n JIAYING!!! -.- u veri veri veri IRKO lehx.. are u overseas or sth??? haix.. i realized i wun be able to rest until after farewell which i will never wan it to come. X.x irony -.- oh fine.. whee at least camp is near!! yay.. now the thing is =DD: to complete camp prep a day before camp XD hhaas tata OH. =D n weiqiang performing on the 18th, 7 pm onwards at hougang.. LIVE. 3-4 songs solo. XD if u r interested, go arh!! XPP

2005-11-12T17:29:00.001+02:00

sheesh. its trainings n trainings n more trainings den after ug fair. its open house n most probabli sec2s will be doin the gadgets n the outdoor cookin so it'll be more... tat sounds PACKED. n theres camp preparation.. -.- its overwhelming.. wiv the cards design to be redone x.x den packin on mondae n outdoor cookin n mass production of cards on mondae plus packkkin n i m sick. X( i do hope everything will be ok. >.< aiya. i m such a worrywart XD lalalala

FEVER. I HATE U! U GO AWAE. u alwaes ruin my day. I DAO U. duncare! i was still hyper todae HAHS *pisses the fever bug off* n havin no appetite is good, i can diet... LALALA arent u jealous.. n sleep is good n healthy nehnehnehneh *suans fever*

well I TINK EVERYTHING WILL JUST BE FINE~~ ^^ yay!! =D if u tink u can, u can!! TATA!! n i tinK WE CAN! WOOHOO =DDDD lalalalalalaalaal... ermz. i wan to slp so tata =))

207'o5

2005-11-05T12:03:00.000+02:00

BOO! hahas *zi high!* haix.. *eh,, mood swings?* well mani mani MANI tings.. hmmm for one sad ting... 207'o5 is OFFICIALLI hmm seperated... X(( yah den recieved loads of fareweelll gifts.. THANKEW n I WILL RMB 207 =D hmmm choral nite was a SUCCESS YAY.. hahs both chi n eng!! hahas xP n mr gary tang PRAISED US *beamsss* sort of... he said 207'o2 was the LEGENDARY drama class and gave him lots of fond memories.. XD n tat hes sort of glad tat we continued it!! hahas =D sooo happi.. finalli! after rehearsals n rehearsing *blehhh* its OVER.. but its such a pretty and wonderful memory tat i wan it NEVER TO END!!! x.x well it was veri verii touchin in the LT.. even tho i was cold.. i had the WARM WARM feelin =PpPpP den we din care how others looked at us... n just sang wo zhi xiang ya from wzbqw.. den it was like MEMORY FLOOD.. den X(( so sad.. haix.. but 207'o5 RAWKS. i noe we do!!! even though our story has come to a preettty end... the curtains haf closed n we... taken the LAST bow =( i noe all the memories n THE SUPERB SPIRIT of 207'o5 will FOREVER. remain!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY!!!! =D LALAALALA... i love 207'o5 for who n wat we r and not.. pretendin nor.. try to be! =DDDD i'll alwaes rmb ALL The fun n luffter.. n i tink wang zi bian qing wa will alwaes remind mi of tat piece of nice lil memori *beams* XD whee!! den todae haf cca wiv scgs n henderson guides.. hmmm it was quite lousy todae.. -.- but nvm... WE CAN DO IT!!! we will improve. improve. improve. n YAH. =D succeed... lalalaala.. anywae i m currentli YAN JIU-ing the kitchen dresser. THERES STH WRONG... the dimensions X.x nvm.. shall take my time!! hahas =D WHEE !!! den i saw LOADS of diff gadgets todae!! hahas SO EXCITING *jumps!!!* XDDDD lalalaalalala ant just find it EXCITIN n FASCINATIN tat the gadgets can move.. the mechanisms are OH SO COOL =P n gao is FASCINATED by my excitement!! haahas BUT.. =PP REALLI veri EXCITING!! yay! ant is SOOOOOO excited... hahas... n i tink..all my gadget designs can 'run' wiv mi if it rains de.. n most can move!! since i m like so TOTalli.. excited ABT MOVING GADGETS teeeehheeeeheee! =DDD well CIAO!! off to my darling gadgets! they are SO cute. SO exciting! n so fun!! but my right leg hurts X(( esp my ankle wiv e blueblack.. i fell down thew stairss -.= *dun luff at mi* its quite common wat.. i alwaes does get into.. hmm the most unxpected stuff x.x TATA!!!!!

ZD

2005-10-25T13:52:00.000+02:00

woots. hmmm MANI TINGS HAPPENED... hmmmmm *tinkkin* XD hmMmMmMmM.. well on last thurs was guides election, nth to do.. had a spLittin headache n i realized it was fever -.-- SLOW X.x NVM haha I M FINE NOW XD Wahahhahahah... den fri hmmmmMmm.. 207 continued watching our WANG ZI BIAN QING WA!!! so nice.. =D ZHENGZHE IS SO SHUAI. we stayed till 5 plus lols. XDD wheeee!! den saturdae went guide hse to pack food for the pakistan earthquake victims... XD it was quite saddd, n ironic if u tink abt hw ppl are sufferin :( n i m like veri high n happi n hyper nw.. (TRIPLE ALLITERATION*) X))) *beams* lets PRAY for them and do any little things we can ? k? coz if everione do a bit, it will BECOME A LOT!!!!! ^^ sundae nite had sebas on charity show. i had tix but got family stuff X(( haix yet another thing for us to tinK abt.. x.x charity.. yah its oso not abt one person's ability and one person cant do much.. but if everyone makes a donation.. it DOES make A DIFFERENCE !! *JUMPS EXCITEDLI* xD haix but i wonder.. :D it makes mi feel so small.. so NOT useful.. but HAAHAHAA if i make ppl REACT... den together we can make THAT difference... but :PP for nw.. i shall do war i can.. N WOOHOOO!!!! MONDAE!!!*smiles* =PpPpPpPp inter class captain's ball!!! WE WON LEHS!! altho got 3 categories, we won 2 of the 3!! XD atfirst jie wasnt veri confident coz we anyhow seperate into groups n din intend to win.. we wanted to haf fun! XP den haix told jie, we may not haf the best abilities but we are united and unity is strength and as long as we stay together and encourage each other WE WILL WIN!! =DDD n WE DID!! LALA.. so proud of EACH N EVERY sevener!! if u tink u can, U CAN! believe !!! :)u can realli see our joy. its our last tym winnin =D as a class le.. WE WERE SCREAMMIN LIKE SIAO... ahahas TOO HAPPI *BEAM* den i was cheeerin.. den a lot of ppl kip starin at mi.. HMMMM i happi wat XDD nvm lols n TODAE.. we went botanice gardens.. it was a niz feelin =D wearin class TEE for the veri last tym and sittin down on the mat and singin songs while lookin at trees under the sunlight. it was pretty and FUN XDDD den saw jap guys. n ate food XD *yummmmyuummmmm* yah.. den went nj buy bubble t den loads of stares BUT i got my BUBBLETEA *content smile* (= den class continued watching DANG OU ahah but zheng zhe XDD *dreammmmi* ^^ n tml n thurs too.. we finishing le. WOOTS i lurve the WAY 207 is. WE RAWK! XDD lalalalalalalalalalalalaalalaallaalala JIAYOU LE !! but i had migraine just nw. but WAHA I M HIGh *jumps ard* so derefore nth WILL BRING MI DOWN n after sleepin i m REFRESHED lalalla ^^ everione, jiayou for choral nite!! ms lee comin backk to see us, make her PROUD! =P n hehes.. i found out hw a fire starter looks like... CHEH. its tat BBQ use de -.- hahas i tot wat MIRACLE TING XDD *oh wells. i m quite slow* but I M HAPPI. no matter i m slow anot.. WHEEE!!

sick

2005-10-14T15:45:00.000+02:00

my feet hurts.. again... i managed to get a blister n it burst... OUCH. hahax nvm.. found good deals.. haix i m sick nw. wiv a high temperature n other stuffs.. shant bother x( awww ms lee left todae. X'(( *sobs* haix.. so far, seveners haf lost SEVEN teachers in 2 yrs.. tats an awful loads. X( haix i m feelin greyy todae.. saw my math marks. isnt veri gd :( i noe i can do better, my 1st half of yr realli brought mi down. I m guilti, n sadd... but i m PROUD coz MS LEE IS PROUD OF MI!!! hahas coz i improved.. haix on a lighter note... i made a mark in her life!! she sae she rmb wat i said XDD so HONOURED hahas.. i m tired.. hmmm the dae bfore the dae before i slept at 0330, den was 0430 den ytd was 0300... hmmmm... but its nt of this tat i fell sick.. i just haf this tendency to be ill HAIX. dunno y but hahas ant is still hyper. happi n HIGH!! wheeee... buhbye!! =DDD

for funnn

2005-10-12T10:16:00.000+02:00

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

sebas

2005-10-08T10:47:00.000+03:00

hmmm.. i just realized i haven blogged for veri lonng hahas.. i feel veri tired but happi n hmmm ACCOMPLISHED.. wheee! look out for sebastian on Shi Fu Man REn Jian next fridae i tink! XDD oh.. i spend ytd to work on his posters n i did 2.. i did one todae.. lets show u my productS!
here

here (at least to mi) XD

and here! hmmm i m madd duncare mi
simplicity makes mi happi.. i dun wan all e material comforts... i have em.. i wan a niz world not this cold world.. yesh for now, i can choose to ignore the ugli side of the world x.x but.. how long can i deny it? katrina. wat did U.S become? it was DEGRADED to a third world country and it showed mi. some very bad stuff.. X( haixxx after talkin to shuuue n sui kim ytd.. i realized that my life is long enuff to write a biography *jumps* ahahas maybe i will -.- hahas anywae realized tat i haf atleast 5 important commitments in my life.. woots hahas.. whee got ca results back! XD although it was quite ok...still nt berrii good.. hmmm avg is 71 budden this is CA! haas i was lucki =D whee! i'm still veri into sebas lehss XD i miss him... haixx anyone noe how to set up a boomp board? tell MI!!! ciao! prays for everyone.. hehes i haf sci exam on mondae but 5 flew by! =DD jiayou everione..wiv exams or problems

:)

2005-09-08T10:22:00.003+03:00

No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them."Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!""If you judge people, you have no time to love them""Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle." PlatoIt takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.""Enthusiasm is contagious. You could start an epidemic!"

:)

2005-09-08T10:22:00.002+03:00

:)

2005-09-08T10:22:00.001+03:00

sicckkk

2005-08-10T06:44:00.000+03:00

i’m still sick =( haix I had another asthma attack den I stayed away from sch for 3 daes plus e wkends that’s 5! Blehh its becoming more n more frequent TSK Hahas den I ended up with loads of hw X( I m still coughin n havin sorethroat. Bleargh ndp is over!! Ndp was funny coz everyone looks like ahma when we wore the hairnets.. teehee! Olivia n jiejie(was it her who fell out?) was nt feel den oli fainted but shes ok now! XD N shes quite happi hahas jiejie fell out den she rested! Well ndp was quite ok! Coz the contingent did not haf to march so no nid arm coordination and dressing…:P binny did a great job!! Although she gave wrong command… she was composed!! Yay! Whee! At least a lot of things are done!! Now left outdoor cookin =D talentquest n my mini project…>.< I m tired :lol.. coz I want to slp have been stayin up late to do my simple repair prac coz my sis wun let mi do it when shes ard mahs =.- hahas I shall sleep sleep n sleeeeep tonite *beams* ciao! Haix I miss qiang =((

:(

2005-07-01T18:21:00.000+03:00

dunno wat to feel.. x.X although he got in. he gained a lot of anti weiqiang ppl n i xpected it.=( coz it alwaes happen when someone gets in and someone u feel more deserving doesnt. its normal reaction... X( i took note of weiqiang frm the beginning coz i feel the 'qi pai'... x) n yah perhaps i m a bit mad over him... but to see a lot of comments and hear them smackked rite into my face isnt niz.. i got smackked a a lot of tyms in just one dae...supporting him doesnt mean i m wrong.. or m i? X( its a bit sad to see how a lot of ppl dun lyk him :( i noe he din sing tat well(but personalli i felt tat he deserved to pass. in my opinion.) and his attire was not tat good. o.o but i had hoped he would be given a chance(perhaps. i m biased. i dunno) i just want to support him.. no matter wat happens. i hope he will nv nv nv be lyk sly. tats sth a lot of ppl haf been sayin.. n theres nth wrong wiv him. sly or him =.= i dunno. hmm i m sadd of the outbursts? or shud i b happi he got in? but its mean to b happi when ppl gets out. =(( yah. weiqiang's fans cheered when he got in n ermmm it seems to haf pictured him as evil =(( so come on everyone! lets b considerate.. n not let anything like this happen kaes? we shud make ppl learn to accept him n not despise him X( we must jiayou! lets continue supporting him n hope he will improve! haix. if not i will get shoot again. weird =.= hahas nvm dun mind the shooting but sometimes its sad to see ppl not even accepting ur idol. =( but i guess ppl are different? X.x we'll be behind u no matter wat happens. weiqiang. dun dissappoint us. hahhas i copied my msg to become a blog post X.x

=(

2005-06-25T21:29:00.000+03:00

hehehs.. long long tym since i blogg! camp's over so is comm service =D

ant is crazee ignore.

haix.. i m currentli CHAO worried for sebastian aka weiqiang.. =X next wk... if not enuff votes.. he'll be out... nononononononoo =(( how? i mite start cryin X( nvm.. relax.. o i created a fc for him
http://tv.groups.yahoo.com/group/sebastianhisstory/

if u lyk him.. JOIN =DD hahas..i spent a lot of tym on it >.<

ant is crazee ignore her.ant is realli CRAZEE.

blehh

2005-05-29T17:21:00.000+03:00

X( i m definiteli weaker.. after my asthma attack... blehhh... n my idiotic sore throat wun go awae since thursdae... n it was throat inflammation which caused fever n den flu... I M IRRITATED with my painful throat... =( its takin awfulli long to heal...=(( but still it will be healed hahas =DD WOOT..n footdrill after 90 daes was rather... ok? WHHEE!!! =DD it totalli rawks! XP hahas... 3 daes... :D oooh n campfire was niz... atleast the fire was! it was lighted by 4 twines!! the fire just went down n wHOOSh~ the fire was lighted!! so cool! =DD*beamsbeams* =( i missed chieh hwee she left when i arrived =Xx but nvm :PpPp tml i m goin backk to sch for lib duty hehes coz my bk was late. saw wrong date n stuff XP whee! camp's near!!! jiayou lols!! =DD wheee... wonder why i m so hyper hahas... i would rather not haf a throat.

QUIZ

2005-05-24T17:03:00.000+03:00

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

hostess05

2005-05-21T17:11:00.000+03:00

hmmmm hostess was disaster... but i learnt somethings... in fact mani things =DD heehes... i shall reflect...n not repeat the mistakes... but we did noe we were goin to faill lyk last wk -.- hahas... HmMmMmM....
in the morning, everything started late..
in the kitchen, to my horror...

started cookin before preparing ingredients,utensils, rag n most importantli,., without a wok n the GAS MAINS werent on -.- hahahs
fried rice we did practice beforehand but unfortunateli todae... it was too bland
n no one went to take out all the plastic baskets AT ONE GO.
they just took wat they nid n left everything else there.
forgot about 1st aid kit =X n meiting cut her hand -.-
we were takin out too mani utensils n cutlery we took wat we needed st8 from the cupboard thus causing a lot of washing to be done
cutted baguettes on the plastic =.-while choppin board saes: USE MI -.- hahas lame
nobodi remembered about eggs until the nite b4 when i realized WE DIN BUY EGGS -.- so got it from several ppl =X
the allocation of manpower was imbalance. there was a lot to do but no one to do it. perhaps we should try walkin first before we fly hehex
the trays were taken up but not washed,,
food from the packs werent washed b4 it was cooked... EEK
maybe although tat wae of melting chocolate will waste chocs.. maybe it was ok coz we had quite a lot of chocs left =D but pro wae is the recipe tat i came across... xP
fishballs were too oily.. bathin in oil?
i brought up the kitchen roll but it was left OSTRACIZED hahas
din noe how to use the microwave =X hm econs fail le =.=i shall go learn!!
leftovers of food.. overestimated
green apple not saoked in salt solution =O
no celery was out of stock according to her but i had some at hm =XX
baguettes wrong proportions again
fillings not pressed down. its just a simple action.
carrot garnish too
fruits not cut in proportion
shudnt haf bought pineapple althou its cheap
no one saw the oranges even tho i took it out
tuna n mayonaisse wasnt taken out before hand
rags werent on hand one dry n one wet~
it was untidy for the fruits kebab
it was slipshod. it was done just for the sake of doin :(
nice kiwi was squashed >.<
they werent arranegd properli
cordial spilled
food on table not arranged properli
not enuff spoons( BUT WE DID CHECK =()perhaps we shud DOUBLE check
paper plates i bought it coz i rmb no one remembered it
no rags on hand yet the proposal stated: table to be clean all the tym
wrong proportions.. i din eat anything xcept for fruits.. there wasnt enuff =S
ladle for cordial used for sth else? for wat?? i dunno =(
garbage bags were too high, it wud break easily
the benches were in an awkward layout. i did ask but i was told it was ok
guiders were not served cold beverage too
guiders werent asked whether they wanted another round of hot beverage
the servin wasnt veri good
almost 10 ppl came out to look for forks when it was downstairs
no allocation of seating arrangements
no allocation of graces
cleaning up wasnt good
e com didnt prepare the brooms n mops
a plate was broken
some ppl werent doin anything while sec3s were helpin n 3 ppl were in the kitchen?? =.=
no one helped mi bring up the brooms. i was struggling ALL THE WAY
it was pathetic the kitchen
wat kind of cleaning up was tat?
30 mins =.= it wasnt enuff.
the stoves were cleaned but it was not thorough
sink not emptied. tats quite common sense to mi... =C
rags not hanged
cannot overlapp =D if not it will b smeellly =<
din put the utensils n cutleries into their respective benches
soy sauce was fromt he kitchen. so was the thick roll of kitchen roll
mixing balls of same size in one bench ??!!
detergent put on top of the sink wiv the sponge
stoves shud be cleaned using a sponge n the metal thing to be brought to the sinkk
guide room cleanup. i m dotted ...............
stuff at wrong places
plastic bags thrown awae. it shud b kept. -.-'''
some ppl took out some things to put wat they want n left the things outside
a lot of ppl dinno where was the section to put the things in
a first aid kit was beside the pile of 72'' n 60'' poles RIDICULOUS =((

n mani more things

i tinkk we lacked this. coordination.

everything was in a mess? wat happened to the proposal tat looked so nice on paper?

it was lost n err i cant sae we followed it...

no one knew wat was goin on

we had a manpower allocation for cleaning up.

but we werent briefed

or rather

they used last yr's proposal?

we werent realli briefed on anything...

but still its an xperience! =DD

why did we still make the mistakes tat perhaps we did last yr...

stilll... we did learn mani mani mani mani things! =P

wasnt feelin veri well but

YAY i din faint! but currentli my temperature is 39.5 =XX

dinno i had fever ahahs X)

no wonder i felt so blurrr...

n i dun like it when i feel bluR

i will alwaes spoil everything =CC

shall SLEEP =D

whee theres still camp..

JIAYOU! =DD

=X

2005-05-12T21:30:00.000+03:00

whee... had a BZ dae ytd... onli managed to go pick twigs at 2300 hais... so scarie!!! got squirrel (i tot got ghosts coz u noe got noise hehes X()den the wind BLOW bloW eeek.... then black black one... hahas i picked sth frm the construction sitee... OOPS X) then too much so i bring trolley n took taxi since it was raining... =DD then i thinkk my class RAWKS larhs... we watched tong hua mv TOGETHER in class durin lunch break usin projector SO NICE... hahs than mr mackintosh n ms lim dare not disturb us =)) veri cool atmosphere.. everione so zuan xin =)) had napfa todae... failed 2 stns. standing broad jump... nvm... EXPECTED... n shuttle runnn... i kip SKIDDING n no one can change shoes wiv mi =(( coz no one haf my shoe size _=_but nvm... it doesnt realli matter to mi... durin intervals i kip runnin backk. for outdoor cooking we cooked kishé vondue... hais. thankew xinyinggg for helpin mi cut green apple =))) n thankew ming for ur poncho although in the end it was provided =.= hahas bin was left wiv 2 sec ones=XX n just michelle for food prep.. she din noe wat to do =.= hahas n aunty sandie reallli is the limit. call her buy chicken she ask: "u want got feather one? alive or dead de? black or white? chicken thigh can anot??" ask her bring mayonnaise:"oh wat colour de? wat brand? how many grams? the bottle how tall?" -.- so in the end i bought chicken n chopped it n marinated it b4 i went to sch yay. =P the chicken tasted nice.. whee... whee.. ms ng sae lyk DELIFRANCE.. =D so i sae KINGFISHERANCE =.= ms ng asked mi what has kingfisher gotta do wiv france -.- IT WASNT MEANT TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLI _-_ HAHAS... YAYAAYAYYAAYAYYAYA. MICheLLE has started to talk!!! WHEEEEEE!!!! =D atleast more so i m happie n todae atleast aunty sandy talked lESS =)) which is a good thing... X)) totalli happi =)) hahas n realized tat kyna is also almost vegetarian!! she onli takes beef of all the meat X)) i din noe @.0 hahs so its 2 ppl in my patrol who are vegetarians... next tym shall tinkk of vege dishes but this tym we did make a variation!! hahs potato instead of chicken n it tastes nice in a different waE!! =DDD YAY. dunno why happie n hyper. yet at the same tym when i m happie. i feel sad.. understanding. issit realli so difficult. why do ppl alwaes disagree? can there ever b a compromise? =DD i m sure there will b!!! whee!! dearr deaar batchmates!! lets jiayou for hostess n camp kaes? shall keep u all in prayers! =DD

whee

2005-05-05T21:00:00.000+03:00

ytd went to ps find meiting to ask her make mi understand maths but i wait. from the q of ppl who wanted to see dr wee kim wee was long to short to long to short to long n finalli not tat long... -.- wheee! maths n sci test aint tat eZ =XX nv was hahas... yeppie! todae we baked cookies!! =P apparentli my sis dun wan to eat " i dun wan to eat anything frm guides" X) nvm... i shall gif it to my classmates tml!! hehes =)) coz i got 5 ulcers n no one in my family wants to eat n by the tym i see my dad i guess my cookies would haf decomposed? -.- hahas... meiting is funni!! hahs =PpPpPp shar has new idol @.0 n shes tokin abt her all the wae hm while meiting crapped abt her idol _-_ shall pray for anna! she has chickenpox 0.0

whee

2005-04-29T17:12:00.000+03:00

ant is in a happi happi mood! yay ant has another jiejie besides jing!! hahas ant passed maths quiz. ant passed chinese. ant passed history. ant learnt sth! n firelighting was rather fun!!! atee dawn n shu are PRO!!!! they turfed a NICE PIT in just hmmm 5 minutes?? @.0 n i passed current affairs YAY lucki i passed. hahas veri hard to just to finish it lyk due to it lack of sleep X) yeppie! meiting! lets jiayou kaes! just believe!! =)) one dae. hehes so happi dunno why but had nosebleed again =(( ytd too. was sneezing sneezing den suddenli realized my whole tissue is red.. n ytd stayed backk to help a while... AUNTIE sold e eggs to mi at 5o cents each SO EX. even more expensive then the tym when haf bird flu _._ but nvm n e pancakes were special! hahas n saw tissy on way home!! hope u did get to SMU in the end!!! =D guess wat i dreamt ytd nite? A FLYING CHANGKUL!!!! hahas lame lols. i was thinking: tats dangerous! when i woke up =_=get well soon liping!!! i'll pray for U!!

west div day 04

2005-04-16T17:40:00.000+03:00

WHEEE~ yay... we won sth... sth totalli unxpected! hehes i din even noe it was a competition =blur= hees.. we were even worryin abt being disqualified at 11 plus... n we finally relaxed at midnite when shujun was finalli allowed to go... XD 1st for gadget n 3rd for flora n fauna(issit? dunno some enviroment thingy) ... =)) hahas... n VIC takkaire kaes.. =X i dun lyk ur voice now... wun listen to u if u giv commands now... pouahahhaha.. =PpP whee... hahas.. REAL HAPPI TODAE... because... i learnt some stuffs.. n i had FUNnn.... n we won =) n e om grps did us proud n all of them were brillant!! =)) yay... wat is most important is tat i learnt sth n had FUN =)) but ytd was rather down. because liu lao shi is gone.. =X although she'll come backk.. the feeling is just different. after 4 mths wiv her, other teachers dun seem to b able to b lyk her.. but its true tat each person is unique... yet... i just will miss her n her lessons n most of all... her lame jokes. ^^ but nvm will still kip in contact wiv her =)) i cried. =S 4 months of being together, everidae a different story definiteli bond us wiv her. xp woots.. n guess wat? i finished my current affairs on tym... but hahas i developed arm muscles... hahas copyin out every article took miii daes tat in the end i wrote 8 reflections in school. PHEW =) managed to finish... couldnt do it b4 sch, recess or lunch =X had to revise wiv some jnrs who faile en. test =S yay sandy n yenjin passed... SATISFACTION =) proud of my sandy hahas... jiayou orh michelle!! we r behind u! n KYNA. _._ u did read thru hahas.. u can do it!! *fingers crossed for you!* whee... learnt sth on cca too... learnt how to build a dome tent!! simpler than e A tent n it looks comfortable =) whee... tats all for now... ALL'S WELL END'S WELL... whee... happi mood? perhaps.

*It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.*

hie

2005-04-07T17:24:00.000+03:00

hie hie... whee!!! a BZ wk had just passed n oh boy m i glad i SURVIVED!!! hahas... just tooo mani tings happened tat i cant rmb wat swept my life these few daes... good luck to all e sec ones n yina n kyna n rachel!!! jiayou worhs!! n sandie, i spent a lot of tym revising wiv u.. u better pivk up the guides bk n read sth!!! =)) tinkk u willl... hmmm i shall slp! whee!! =)

wheee....

2005-03-18T15:39:00.000+02:00

The most destructive habit-
Worry
The greatest Joy-
Giving
The greatest loss-
Loss of self-respect
The most satisfying work-
Helping others
The ugliest personality trait-
Selfishness
The most endangered species-
Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource-
Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm"-
Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome-
Fear
The most effective sleeping pill-
Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease-
Excuses
The most powerful force in life-
Love
The most dangerous pariah-
A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer-
The brain
The worst thing to be without-
Hope
The deadliest weapon-
The tongue
The two most power-filled words-
"I Can"
The greatest asset-
Faith
The most worthless emotion-
Self-pity
The most beautiful attire-
SMILE!
The most prized possession-
Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication-
Prayer
The most contagious spirit-
Enthusiasm

woot

2005-03-13T11:57:00.000+02:00

part 2... den was the nice long dae at coasta sands... ALL the instructors made it veri funn for us!! thankew!!! =)) GO CYRIL! GO EUNICE ! GO DO THE CHACHA DANCE!! n sorrie to eunice..X) played lots of games n stuff.. had a rawking tym.. it was the onlo dae tat was lyk a camp... the campfire was quite distant though but heyy... it still rawked... coz we could realli see all the light sticksss... n stuffs... ms chia came backk too... n heyy esp the cheeering rawked !!! =)) woots... boy i realli missed it tat i cried on the wae backk to sch till i slept ... *emotional ant* den chatted wiv jingyi at the balcony n decided i realli realli love camps... but i still liked my the camp iw ent wen i was just p2... it was the type when a grp realli dinno each other n interacted... i made lots of frens n funn though i was the onli p2 person in the grp... actualli tat y its funn.. =P coz the grp realli got to noe each other n stuff n i learnt lots of things.... MISSED IT... den was the last dae n hahas... it was the usual telematch clearing up n stuffs.... i just want to sae.... 207 RAWKS!!! =) heyhey... 3 cheers n 3 cheers n 3 cheers for 2/7! ugga shagga ugga shagga ugga shagga WOOSH!!!!^^ tinkk my dae would end just liddat? no.... ANT LOST HER WAE ... =X i slept on the bus n woke up n was lyk *huh... where m i ???* den went to bedok interchange but couldnt find the mrt stn so i walk n walk n drifted awae frm the interchange n took a 66 frm sum bus stop n i missed the stop again coz i doze off >.< n i ended up at nanyang again n FINALLI WENT HOME... i reached home at 1730... i left sch at ard 13++++ -_-'''' nvm... ant will get less blurr!!! one dae!!!

yay

2005-03-13T11:56:00.000+02:00

part 1 of camp!!!! heyhey i m backkk. frm camp!!! n as usual i haf lost my voice... i was tokin tokin n suddenli my voice went deadd -.- overalll the 5 daess camppp... i onli lyk e dae we spent in coasta sandsss... hahas coz the 1st two daes were veri not camp-ish i mean we came home n stuff so it was lyk spending the day as a normal school dae.. i even went for 3rd lang??!! X) whee on the third dae went to the HSBC treetop walk... saw lots of things.. lyk this weird mathematical plant which had leaves together to form pentagons.. @.0 n 7 monkeys!! (7 rawks!!) den 2/8's rachel fell down but lyk everione wiv the first aid kits left -_-''' then after tat jiayi n i stayed backk to clean up the canteen after lunch *red face* n now ant is a cleaner... hahas... conclusion : the canteen is realli realli veri veri DIRTY! >.< hahas oh n we both REALLI REALLI slept on the ground mat wiv 2 ponchos... n SPECIAL THANKS TO RACHEL CHNG coz she lent mi eeyore for CAMP... =))) played intellectual games... n ant looked as if she jumped into the tall tall recycling bin... i went digging for newspapers but we ended up wiv 3 months worth of newspaper tat were xtra...-.- hehes... then was the movie marathon but we onli watched one marathon....

wooots

2005-03-12T14:56:00.000+02:00

i'll upload my blog post tml

yay..

2005-03-01T19:02:00.000+02:00

woots.. on fridae did LOADSof tings.. hahas atfirst was the parade. @.0 did try nt to move n i wasnt timing... my classmates insist i was the timer -_-''' NOT MI!!! my voice is not lyk tat... hahas.. den when i went to class : anthea!! kittens... ard ur table... cat.. *ant blinkks blinnkks* actualli it was tat cat tat flew out of my class ytd n todae which left her kittens in jie's OM boxes -.-''' n they r boo, woo n hoo!! they finalli found owners... yay.. dunnid to go spca... =)) during lunch.. i feel lyk killin the ppl who ran awae frm mi... coz i was limping after themm n they ran..... hmphhhh... X) nvm... den after sch just stayed backk.. reg. litang. rachelgoh. junice. edna n charis stayed backk too for their bio? n reg was suppose to revise jap wiv shar n vic but din doo any of tat...-.- instead we went shouting wiv np hahs... so nice..=PpPpPpP ant destress... yepps... den played concentration n laze ard(ok larhs. a bit slackk >.<) den went home yay.... n so ant was stress-free for about 3 daes...(= til ytd wen i got my maths paper... i failed =(( n so i was suppose to choose. nygg or french... heh i pretend i nv hear n went to slp... whee~ failed hist... wonder wat will happen... =S

thinnnkkin dae

2005-02-19T22:34:00.000+02:00

a bz bz bz dae... 1st woke up wiv a splitting headache n my lips were swollen lyk sausage wiv the two ulcers in the same position =X den went to sch. reach at ard 7.30.. whee den we onli made 4 posters =( b a banner... then was footdrill... it was eerie.. ant saw dawn flying @.o blink blink blinKKK back to normal...there was once it was even scarier coz i saw shuang shuang. (double shuangs) >.< scarie.. hahas.. oh den helped yina sew badges. budden she nv bring scarf so in the end she wore rachel's uni n her uni is currentli in my bag waiting for mi to sew...=P tied lots of scarves todae hahas.... jiayun's was tied on the bus... n kinda missed lunch so i was hungry at teh ralli... i started shouting: i m hungry... i want food... the theme is FOOD!! headache came backk but i was n2 so my row looked dead.. -.- saw bigmel n other snrs too... we got a silver for pna... *sobsob*must jiayou A LOT this yr... X) pouhahaahhaha forced nana to b n2.... eeeeekk huibin nv go :( den went backk to sch to collect teh posters n banner... nv felt so useless b4... =S the things dropped ard 15 tyms in my whole journey frm boonkeng mrt stn.... =.o n it dropped down an escalator n i had to go down n take the plastic sheet again...n once using my head to prevent the things frm droppin while picking up sth.... n dashin across the road to save my banner coz the wind blew it awae -_-''' too light.. n i fell once..-.- causing EVERYTHING to b dropped out... how clumsy can ant get?? hmmmmmmmm and ant got scolded once she got home... =C hw sweet... but if it makes them feel happier n it mite stop them frm stoppin mi.... i don mind... =)

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2005-02-04T01:54:00.000+02:00

ant was crushed. ant is crushed. ant is stil crushed.

dunno why but i was. everi word came wiv pricks. everi ting i dun wish to do happened n i felt terribli guilty.

mabbe i m nt tat totful. i deserve it. but why do i still feel the pain.

mabbe mabbe mabbe practice dun make perfect.

mabbe i m used to it. my heart just feels empty. mabbe tryin ur best isnt enuff.

but sumtimes..

things dun turn out the way u want..

but so?

one dae it will...

yupss.. =)

tadah.

nth is impossible.

if u try.

if u dare to stand up..

after a fall

but.

being numb helps.

hahas.

whee~~

things will turn out right...

as long as u believe....

no matter how mani tyms it may fail u...

wheee~

2005-01-29T00:38:00.000+02:00

thankew to everione who made my dae special. b4.on n after my bdae!!
wheee~ on 25th. i got a nice mashimaro from suat!!! 2nd prezzie... THANKEW>>> den ting arrived.. wiv the NICE NICE STRAWBERRY WALLET!!! thankew to ting. gao. mingky. dawn. shu. tausah. tracy. atee. mer !! =))) did footdrill 1st recess wiv A FEW PPL a few is realli a few... X) oh n den 2nd recess guess wat... hongy made mi go look at her while she stamp her maths paper n coz sth was brewin... went down to canteen. saw ppl n a cake.. a PINKK cake.. den walk over... founda cake was for mi.. *blink blink.* my burfdae was suppose to b on the next dae??? *blinkblink* den had no candles coz no one brought at lighter. hahas.. ooh it was a NICE. STRAWBERRI. ICE-CREAM. PINK. FULL OF LOVE. CAKE... =PpPpP given to mi by cal. shar. rachel n vic.. yay... n they gaf mi a box full of strawberri sweets. biscuits. titbits. eraser. fotoframe. hairclips. n i started feelin stupid coz.... ( daes b4. "shar!!! see the box so nice can put *shant type out coz it din happen* !!" shar pretended to look at the box for the 1st tym n sae" ooooh so nice.." when in actual fact she bought it alreadi -_-''' and for the strawberries clips. i was abt to buy them dens she stopped mi coz they alreadi bought it. X)) hahas felt stupid.. but HAPPI... woot.. ThankewwWWwww!!! oh n ren gave mi a nice cute figurine... n a small small letter tat looked so cute.. den on 26th..my bdae!! woke up feelin niz...=)) hmmm got a bdae prezzie from shuning... wow. it was VERI PINKK ... bright pinkk n fluffy.. loved it...thanks shuning!!! oh n got a letter frm evil orange n cherry... (euods n ting lols...) X) hmmmm n went for recesss.. when i came backk.. kyna's prezzie was on my table!! whee~ it is so sweet. it was a cross stitch in a loveli pinkk box!! =)) thankewWW! lurve ya.. my fellow patrol mate!! oh den there was caregrp.. n made mi go play a blindfold game den made mi hold a cupcake n sang to mi... hahas.. but it was nice.. n i got another cupcake... n i want to thank my dear shepherd!! =D choonmin rawk on... n i gto my bible.. yay! n choon yee gaf mi a nice notebook..n not forgetting liping.. chocolates!!! thankewWWws!! =) after tat during third lang lots of ppl wished mi happi bdae.. too mani so i shall sae thankewwwss to everyone who did!! plus a "bon anniversaire" frm monsieur yong... oh tissy n yina msged mi too.. thanks! =P den went to minitoons to get a small card for mingky n to gif a name to make a hp strap for mingky.. was broke budden went to my dad's office n got some $$ =PpPpPpPpP woot finalli went home n was veri bz. coz couldnt finish the stars oops. slept at 1 i tink den whee~ 27th. i woke up at 5.10.. n i was planning to reach sch at u noe lyk 10 mins earlier than usual onli budden my dear daddi suddenli called mi n said wanted to fetch mi so i ended up in sch at 6.25. X) woot~~ i got to see the sch became alive.. from no sound. silence. to . footsteps. to hall having lite. to ppl playin in hall. to ppl talkin. n noisy. hahas.. kekes.. den we went to gib mingky her bdae prezzie MONGKY.. =PpP n gaf her the stars n the keychain during 1st recess.. our plan wasnt carried out coz there wasnt anytime.. >.< n the remains of the paper planes are lyk in my room stackin up space.. hahas.. oh n the sec4s gaf mingky a memorable footdrill/bdae celebration. yepps.. hahs.. n mg gaf her a comb of bananas n a flour baby ahahs.. (actualli it was full of starch =P it made hongy meijiao realll starchy hiahia... *evil grin* n mi just starchy... @.0) oh den woot got a prezzie from shujun n val... a cute small purple fan!! hahas.. so cute.n shao gaf mi a nice dog.. small sized lyk fluff wheee~ n i m tinkkin of a name for it... my mortal gaf mi a COOKIE MONSTER(my buddy during camp) cup wiv chocs n a strawberri lollipop... *my mortal is nice...* oh after footdrill's lunch. i went back to my class to find tat wen n oli's prezzie was on the table... it was full of strawberries goodies n a box of REAL STRAWBERRIES... which smelt veri veri nicee... THANKS LOADS! =)) hahas... shall thank everyone who remembered my bdae!! XD
shalll jump all the way to cca... i felt dotted by my dear sec3s. i tinkk kyna is the onli normal person in my patrol on fri hahas.. i went mad wiv my sec3s...wen ordered a cookie bra.. -_-''' n binny went to make it ahahs.. n nana went to make a WHOLE WEN -_- i tried makin a strawberri but it kinda blended in wiv all e cookies.. n my gingerbreadman's head broke *sobs* but i still had smileys cookies.. =))so in the end onli kyna's cookies were "zhen jing " hahas.. binny n nana even made BULLS but they were kinda horizontalli challenged so they looked like DUNG. hahas...did footdrill WHEE~ kiwi u cant stopp mi pouhahah... n it rawks as usual but still i m blurr n i was running instead of doin belok.. *oops* stayed backk till 1945 doin footdrill wiv shar n ting hahas.. n now we noe doin footdrill in the evenings RAWK! its not hot nor too cold. just breezy!! =Pp mabbe during camp we can do footdrills in the evenings... mabbe 4-7 or longer... hahas... whee~ according to ppl i was quiet??!!?? i was?? mabbe coz i din realli wan to tokk.. X) coz when i tok nobody hears mi blehhh.
n todae... nth much happened.. i revised homework* shocked* hahahas... n i had nose bleed just now. EUK. n i din go to church =( coz my sis wanted mi to stay home n help her =X nvmmm i WILL GO next week no matter wat happens... n i shall haf shepherding on tues!! =PpP i shall go sleep... in order to curb tissy n vic's nagging hahas... =P

hari raya haji

2005-01-21T22:15:00.000+02:00

HAPPI HARI RAYA HAIJI!!! (= hahas... woot!!! my fever has finalli goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dowwnnnnn... its just 37.4 now!!! =)) yay... n did footdrill ytd!!! RAWKS> but still as bad... hehes.. ^^ TOTALLI PISSED OFF AT MY LEGS... either over or below 90 degrees. haix... nvm... practice makes perfect!!! i will practise!!! yay... but a squad is alwaes a squad so must definiteli prac wiv my squad!!! =pPpPp cherry n kiwi sabo miii made mi go sit down... >.< i was just a bit not feelin well... hmphhhh. mabbe vomiting isnt tat common budden everiting is oreadi out so.... nth to fear wat... haix nvmm.... still managed to do most of the footdrilll!! =)) hahas.. n now i have lost my voice.. eVIL so i can onli type type type n type..X) hic... nth much happened... wheee~~ n i got a NEW NICE L BERET!!!! hahas.. coz there was onli L for meiting so i changed wiv her since my head is BIG...=)) seriousli after comparing, oli n i found tat her L beret was bigger than my L beret hahas... tats so crappy of us... =p suppose i haf lots of plans undergoin this few weeks.. will b reall BZ.... =)))

footdrill~

2005-01-14T14:42:00.000+02:00

wheeee~ after waitin for a wk we haf CCa..n shufeng's fren jia yun has joined guides!!! she was frm dunman's guides... =)) yay... 22 sec 2s just lyk sec3s, 22 too!! =)) had footdrill... was funnn but i did MANI WRONG THINGS... XD kk first of all, all my practice wiv the 90 degree din pay off.. :( frm hols til ytd i practised but stillll haix... shall practise more... =PpPp hmmmm den i marched too slow or couldnt catch up....dunno why... i was kinda "chiong" -.- n paupau luffed at my feet ohh den when i was timing, shar n ting sae i was too feminine n hig pitched.... ^^ shall try to b lower... oh n my shoelaces kip falling out n i stepped onto them -.-''' hees.. but still enjoyed it. learnt sth!!! =))) yay... n i shall go practise... so i will be able to look normal when i march.... hmmmm n wat size boots shld i get?

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2005-01-08T17:21:00.000+02:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ ant is finalli FINE!! yayy... kaes coz for the past 5 daes... i was sickk =( eeeks... had fever n was cold... even when i was beside the firepit... -.- but now i m fineeee=)) but i missed svc oh.....nvm... =)) i feel happie n fine... coz for the five daes i felt tired... sick... pain n blurrr... n shar said my eyes looked GLASSY tat sounds bad...:)
nvm... kekes.. shall blog some crappy stuff tat happened... =PpPpPLyk.... ytd...
vic, shar, cal, jol n miii decided to do a DAO test!! n i shall recall wat happened... (i was abt to slp u noe..coz i felt cold n sick) FIRSt on... mingky n dawnie... they......... DAOed us!! shar said dawn saw us n so did mingky... so in this case.. we labelled it as DAO! so tadah... used my fone called mingky since dawn was on her fone n all of us shouted :" WHY U DAO US!" n i asked her to come backk n sae helloos to us... den in lightning speed... mingky was on the balcony waving wiv her "Ego smile" n dawn looked -.- den... ren n xuanie passed by n they din dao us!! yepps... n xinyingg din too!! =)) kaes along came jia en n tricia.. we waved.. we said hieee dey DAo-ed us... but tricia sae she tried to wave so her things dropped... oh. n jiaen said she din dao... n told tricia sth n tricia said "hi ANTHEA!!" veri loudli... hhaas.. =P hmmmmmmmmmmmm..........
dey did sae hi! den along came a grp of sec threes n jia en turned ard to see whether they will dao anot.. hahas.. n they din EXCEPT for one....
rachel goh!! so i decided we shld make her notice us... n wiv the count of 1-2-3... We said HI RACHEL GOH n she waved!! teehees...(x
next was ongying.. n she was the most comical one.. coz till the end, she still din sae hi... so literalli... it means she DAO us all the wae.... first she was walkin towards the xcit... den we were lyk" u tink she'll dao us? i tink she will" " i tinkk she will not c us" "she walking to GO?" n she walked to GO tat side.. so we were lyk "did she see us??" XD den came tausah wiv her fren n she DAO us oso... but mabbe she din see us so we decided nt to call her... n ongying walked back... n when we were tokin n discussin whether she will dao us .. she STOPPED at the staircase n turn her head around... den tinkk for awhile.. (it was quite funni!!=)) den she turned n walked awae... Later.... she walked backk again n walked towards us!! n she walked briskli PASSED our table.. n this means she DAO us right? coz we were lyk VERI NEAR to her... -.- then she met tausah... so we called tausah n asked her why she n ongying dao us.. she said "HUH? i nv see u larhs... blahblahblah.. dun call mii, my hp no batt le!!" so all of us decided to go to the bus stop n DAO them delibrateli.. hahahs..n we did... after our(shar, cal n mii) bus came... vic n jol went over the bridge... i din want to go... coz i want to DAO longer hehes.. +) evil ANT! n its a WISE choice.. coz WE MET TISSY~~~~~ n hugged her!!! (= yay... den continued DAOING hahas.. den when tausah board the bus i gu yi turn ard n she gaf mii tat "shou-bu-liao-u-look-wiv-amusement" tat looked VERI VERI FUNNI!!! hahas....sooooooooooooooooo
ANT CAN DAO!!! =)) but i wasnt realli daoing was i? hahas... watever it has passed! lols.. tralalalala i m lookin forward to future!! yay-ness!!! =)=)=) ohh n i just linkked kyna n shaowen!! =)

thankies below..be sure to read!!!

2005-01-02T02:35:00.000+02:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERIONE!!!! including U! yes U, hu is reading this hahas.... n kip ur smile! =) ohh n thankies are below n very loong!!

WOOT! fluff is found... =) my niece stole himm -.-''' oh ytd went for caregroup... it was veri funn... Thanks! for everyone present... U made my dae..n we watched movies.. 3 movies... first by tracy's les choristes (dunno hw to spell... hees n i m a french student -.-''') It was NIZ... n touching... abt hw music could attualli tame a person... it was lyk a miracle? n all the patience shown by Clement Mathieu... =) i was tearing but they din fall yay.... oh den we watched White Chicks... which was quite funni... sum parts were grossed... n while we were eating spaghetti, the gross part had to be out... hees... den was taxi... tat guy is realli realli a LOSEr... hahs... n e game we played were quite funn.. n funny... hees.. wonderful time.. thankew to everibodi who was there!!
at nite went for a party at some realtive's hse... played billard but i dunno hw to hees.. den played table tennis which i oso dunno hw to play... n was SPRAYED AT again... hmph!! but well was funn n played wiv sparkerss... it was beautiful though i got burned by it... accident prone... nvm! =) den drank vodka... Shhhh!! but wasnt nice so i mixed it wiv lime juice hahs..=P
overall was niz... n TODAE... i went for service... yay!! felt real happie.. though i m havin flu n my shole body's about to break... whee~ hope i will b able to go next wk... told my sis i was goin shopping... i did u noe... just after that! =)=)=)
N I M HAPPIE NW>>> wiv no reason!!
well mayb coz... vic is smiling again? i cried in the morning?
i tink its coz God LOVES mii- unconditionally.... =)
i m gratefull for everything! n everyone who has appeared in my life....
U haf helped mii, just tat u dunno... =) actualli by smiling, u r alreadi making mii happi... =)

THANKEWS!!!(2004)

to my batchmates!! u made my year! thanksss!!! =) we shall try harder kkaes? to perfect our footdrill n our relationship!!! n to make our snrs proud of us!!! i m realli happi 2 c ppl startin to like guides n feel for it! we'll jiayou together...=)=)=)

to sec2s!!! thankew for all ur help dis yr!! without ur help dis yr.. i would haf felt lost n even more blurr... hees... u all r a gr8 bunch of ppl... =) Lurve all of euu lots!! wish u all luck... next yr(dis yr) u all goin to b sec3s le... haf more pressure n responsiblity le... jiayou!!! u all can do it de... =)=)

to sec3s... wow... u all is a relli small batch n ur relationship is STURDY STRONG! thankew for everything u all haf done dis yr... guides camp n all the activities... everything is gr8 n camp was terrific... though u all had limited manpower... n ur camp did make us lurve guides more... so RAWK ON!!! =)=)=)

to sec4s!!! heyy.. though i din noe u all well but i tinkk u all did lots of tings for us.. every one in nygg..the activities b4 sec3s took over... i'll miss u all!! though things arent goin pretty well for u all, u all still tried to b happi during farewell... =) but pls smile... frm ur heart... Things will be alright!! yeppss... Gd Luck to u in dis new yr... LURve u aLL.. mini china...=) keep smiling =)

to 107... We did it!! we passed a yr TOGETHER!!! been missing everyone in class... Thankew for bearing wiv my lameness n sorrie to be chasing after u all for $$... i had to do it... LEt's work harder next yr kaes...

individuals thankews....

kendra!! thankew... for bearing wiv mii this yr... u were sitting beside mii hahas... n for being my first fren in nanyang!! u r a gr8 fren... jiayou for next yr!! n smiles..

jiayi!! helloos.. thankew for bearing wiv mitoo... had lots of fun wiv euu... lyk rushing hmwork n rushin for french lessons... thankew for goin to ask $$ frm ppl in 107... hahas...n goin hm wiv mii when we dun haf cca n after third lang.... lets work hard for french n stay cute!!! =)

crystal!! thankew fo luffin at my lame jokes n accompanying mii whenever i needed u!! n bearing wiv mii n being so patient to to teach mii stuff tat i din noe... u rawk on!!! =))

bernice... thankew the batchmate on my left yet not my biddy patrol mate... thankew for waitin for cca before it starts... n makin mii smile by smiling n luffin so much!!! Lurve ya.. (though i must tell u my feet aint small) kip smiling kaes... glad tat nw u noe guides isnt that horrible... n thankew for thinkin so highli of mii... =) u go gal!! wiv pearlynne n jiawen!! three of u all is takashimaya? just rawkk on!

emily! thanks for being such a wonderful maths rep... sorryie my homework is alwaes handed up at the end of the dae...guilty... thankew for waiting for mii when i was filin my maths file... thankew.. n dun sae so mani sorries kk.. =) n to all the other reps... Thankew too!!! u haf all been wonderfull...

to everyone else in 107 tat i haf nt mentioned sorry... coz i m too lazy... but i m realli grateful for ALL of u in my life... i will rmb euu all til the end of the world!!! =))

shar... thankewww for being there for mii when i was down... though i was down for onli 2 daes while recharging... n sorrie for affecting u... hees..=) oh n thankew for goin to sch wiv mii every morning n goin home wiv mii after cca... (dun stop mii frm buyin icelemontea!!!) n thankew for shoppin prezzies wiv mii n making the sec4 cards wiv mii(though they were lost) thanks!!! God Bless U!!! n u will grow talll!!! =) haf tat niz smile on ur face horh!!!=) hoped u had a memorable bdae... X)

ting... thanks!!! for goin to sch wiv mii too n goin hm wiv mii sumtimes... n for doin the sec 4 cards wiv mii too (though we threw tat batch away)... n for makin two frenship bands... n for being a wonderful i.c!!! n for that short skit... when i was discouraged, ur exciting jumping made mii come back!!! jiayou!!! =) Stay that way n happi...

vic.. thankeuu for being there for mi.. u r so tall n u make mii feel protected hahas... n for walkin for hrs wiv mii to get prezzies n tryin to help mii dissuade jol, ren n ting frm quitiing(though they r still bent on quitting)... n thanks!! for smiling n luffin at my lame jokes... n being "feng" wiv mii.. ur smile brightens my dae u noe.. dun b sadd nemore... u will forever b a morning glorian... in ur heart!!! SMILE n believe in urself... u r a great guide... dun look down on urself u r better than mii!! haf faith!!! everything will b fine... believe kaes? in Him!! =))

val... thanks a lot for hafin such a niz smile... i just love it!! ur singing n rappin aint horrible kaes... ^^ hahas.. n thankew for goin shoppin wiv mii tat dae though i went hm... n ur feet aint big... its just tat the shoe is big!!! =) lets practice footdrill together next yr... =)

gaoRen... thankew for being there to bring luff-ter... n both ur smiles r reall niz.. n ren... u r not tat bad... haf some faith in urself... u did it last yr(2004) u can do it in 2005 too!! jiayou... if u feel lyk breakkin down.. i m here!! my shoulder can lend u de... =)=)=) b a niz psgl kaes? n cheer up... dun worry so much... gao... u rawk on kaes? =) n smile =)

jol... hihi.. jol u r a gr8 buddy patrol mate... hie... n lyk ren, jiayou!!
n rmb tat if u dun believe in urself no one will.. n i m tellin u this str8 in the face(sort of) I BELIEVE IN U!!! kaes.. rmb God will b there... no matter whther u decide to quit french, u just haf more trust in urself!!! n rmb to b more decisive... n just telling u, u R a GR8 person n u r chatty... try to show ur chatty side more often... u wont offend ppl... i wun be offended...=PpPpPpP n =))

oli.. thanks a million for being my buddy patrol mate... u r interesting... n funn to b with!! n thankew for being a wonderful i.c!! sorry for keepin u up late to submit the 3 proposals... sorry!! jiayou !!! n stay cool !=))

xuanie... thankew for being the- the- left- patrol-but not- buddy- patrol- mate- hahas.. thanks for being so funni wiv ber next door.. lightening the mood when things get bored... m happi for euu tat u got to lyk guides..
yay... oh n thankew for bein in my french class too n Mdm lee doesnt lyk mii kaes... kip ur niz smile on! =) n continue to talk as much.... =)
(ber i thanked u alreadi!!)

shaowen... thankew for being my platoon sec1 mate... u were veri funn n strong!! thanks for being able to do things i cant... so sorrie...u r realli niz... n i hope to noe u better... n try not to slp so much... hahas.. (din mean to b offensive) lets work hard together!! =)) n ur smile is very special... smile more often kaes. it is veri rare to c u smile..=))

shujun... thankew for bein so niz n everything... french fries... oh u stay cool kaes... n wear the right shoes!!! hahas... n for trying to teach mii berhant... but i still dunno.. sheesh... -.- sorrie... but thankew newae... n for tat tym doin gadget wiv mii... =)=)=)

racheL... thankew for visiting the church n stuff... n for ur christmas card n stuff... u were there wiv shar all the tym... u 2 are starting to look alike hahas.. i lyk ur smile a LOT... coz of ur ever colourful braces changed once a mth... promise u'll get purple!!! hahas... kip smiling on, i'll try to noe Him better!! Promise.. *hooks ur small finger* =) kip tat smile on!

mingO... heyyy.. thankew for telling mii tings tat i din noe.. whenever i sms u abt guides or french... thnakew... n for coming to all tat meetings when sumtimes onli 5 turned up!! hope to see u next yr in french class n guides!! rawk on... n kip ur smile on as u kip ur hair growing!! =))

cal.. hie.. thankew for goin to church wiv mii too... n taking the cake down... for shar n trying hard to help mii n taking pics of fluff.. (hes cute!!!) hahas n for ur dreamy smile.. it kips mii smiling too.. hahas.. jiayou kaes n talk more, lyk u do in front of mii!!! =) n keep smiling!!! =) oh n thankss!! for everything u've done in guides camp, stayin back to do banner wiv mii n stuff...=)

shuli... thank you! for the ideas u contributed n u tryin to help when u were bz!! n for being so stable... n kip smiling kaes.. nicer cds will b available... mayb its just an omen... things will get better... =)=) ur smile is sweet... kip it on forever??!!!

jamie... thanks!! for being my platoon mate hu din went for camp.. hees.. thanks for luffin at my lame jokes n tryin to help us.. n tellin mii tings abt u tat was interesting... its kinda super of u to haf two ccas... jiayou!!! n smile too... =)

huimin.. (dun tink u'll b reading this) but newaez.. thankew... u were there for all th rehearsals n stuff n thanks a lot for trying to help change the lyrics wiv mii, vic n shar!! i din realli c u smile.. =X dis yr (2004) hope u will in the new yr n be more chatty!!! =)

shufeng... thanks... though u will not b wiv us next yr, i wtill want to wish u gd luck! n tat u will alwaez rmb the 1 yr in guides... n for sharing wiv us cool facts tat i din noe.. hees... ur smile's loveli too.. so =) more!!

woot... i wrote lots n i m continuing... i din miss out ne1 did i? X) thanks batchmates.... WE RAWK!!!=)

Xinying... Thankew for thanking mii hahas.. n being so niz n friendli ! n being so capable.. m soooo proud of u!!! n doin the roll call n stuff n helpin mii keep my stuff in ur pocket... i'll rmb u...n ur bdae... =)) KINGFISHER RAWKSS!!! =) kip ur affectionate smile on!!!

huibin... binny... hahas.. thankew for being my niz niz sec2.. its funn bein wiv u n ur lame jokes... (wheee~ glad tat sum1 is as lame as mii) hahas.. n thankew too for keepin my tings too! jiayou kaes... n smile... =))

shuning... heyy.. thankew for bein my buddy patrol's sec2.. u r realli niz... niz of u to lend mii ur shoes during camp...=) thanks do much for teaching mii stuff... n thankew for tat dae i tagged along wiv ur patrol... =) kip smilin on.. n i'll rmb u!! =))

suat... hie... thanks too.. 4 bein my buddy patrol's sec2... u r realli on task.. n teaching mi stuff too... seeya next yr!!! n kip ur nice smile on!! =)=)

euodia... heyyy to the-sec2-left-of-my-patrol-yet-not-buddy-patrol hahas.. thankew for being so funni... wiv junice.. n makin mii luff when u 'scold' ber n xuanie... hahas... sadd u din go for guides camp... but newaez... seeya next yr wiv ur i-dunno-hw-to-describe smile!!! =)

junice... hellos to the-sec2-left-of-my-patrol-yet-not-buddy-patrol... whee~ thanks for luffin so funni tat u make mii luff haha.. n ur jokin ard wiv ur patrol mates that sumtyms make my dae... n thankew for bein in raptor n walkin wiv mi backk frm coro n stayyin back to do last min work for camp!!! =)) put on ur infectious smile!!!

claire... hey there!! so hows ur pokemon toothbrush... hahas.. oh thankew for bein a wonderful p.s in camp... n being so cute whe u look frantic... tings did go alrite!! oh n for being so serious when u needed to n so on-task!!! thanks fo typin out everything n being so niz to miii, u din realli force mii to eat... takkaire!! n smile... ur smile looks lyk pokemon u noe... hahahs.... =)) no offence!

hong ling... whee~ hello for being such a sweet sec2.. u r almost lyk a sec1... the gan jue.. hahas.. n for bein so patient wiv mii... n not cranking up n stuff.. n eating some of my food in camp... X)n for layin the tent n not bullyin fluff lyk claire... hahas..thanks!! n dun sigh at mii... i m nt tat hopeless hees... smile at mii =)

lynn... hellos fellow sevener!!! thanks for lending mii ur black t... (ur class t) hahas.. n being so nice during camp... n such a reaponsible leader... u tried hard... =) n thankew for eating some of my food in camp too... =)) so nice of you... thankew for staying up late to go for COH n coming back to debrief us... thanks...=)) brilliant smile u've got... princess rose... hahahas..=)

adeline... heyy fellow sevener too... thanks for being so nice during camp n acoompanying mii =))... n for being so observant... though i tinkk i m not tanner hahas... i dunno too... Stay cool kaes n =)

tricia.. thanks too! sevener!! hahas.. n helpin my platoon during camp... thankeuu... n for everyting u did b4 camp!!! =))

yibing... heyy thanks for doin lots of tings for mii in camp... n helpin mii fill water for ppl while i was bathing... thankew... n for washing the rest of the tings after ther 'bbq' n staying wiv mii when everyone left... thankew.. ur smile's cute so smile =))

litang... heyy thankew for being so funni durin camp n b4 camp... hahas.. u provide great entertainment... all the best n =))

may gin... hie... thanks for bein in raptor n sorrie coz we went picking twigs... without rremembering ur fries... n thankew for offering mii food n everything!! =)) smile... =))

edna... thankew for being in chinook n leading us when were playin the balloon game =)) u r realli niz... n u haf a wonderful smile...=) so smile...

tissy...the bimbo wiv an ego... heyy.. i'll miss u... so u better come backk kaes... n climb the fence for us... oh though xinying will use the chungkor to knowck down the fence... oh n jiayou!! =)) smile...

reg..n meijiao...hees... thankew for talkin to mii online n stuff... n being so blurr in the dance tat i couldnt stop luffin... hahas... n meijiao... for doin gadget wiv mii in the starting of the yr n sitting on the unstable but 'creative' chair... hees.. oh n for bein so cute...(r u sure ur shoe is 3.5 size? isnt it lyk 2 or smaller?) both of u can keep that retarded face though a smile would b nicer... =)

rachelgoh... heyy thankew for specialli cuming online to send mii sec2s timeframe so i knew wat i had to do... n mani thnaks for makin mii luff... =))

jiaen... hie.. thankew thankew n thankew... for clearing lots of my doubts when i asked u... hees.. abt hostess badge n stuff thanks!!! =) sorrie to trouble u... hahas... n thanks for taggin at my blogg...stay happie.. n dun get sickk.. =))

charis... heyy thankew for all ur sms... u rmbed mii... =) n thanks a lot coz u went wiv mii to get my guide u... thanks n dun b sadis.. smile!!!=))

n to all the sec2s not mentioned... thanks too... for being there... whee~ i m just too lazy... heees sorry..=) smileeees

mer... thankew for reminding mii that theres cca n wat to wear n stuff... n for bein a wonderful sec3 in kingfisher making it livelier.. i'll miss u whenu r gone... gd luck!!! =)) n smile... wiv ur barbie doll lyk smile...

rachael.. thanksss!! for being so patient n kind n everything... n buying the prezzies for the sec4s... which was niz... u r realli a niz person... see ya next yr n jiayou kaes.. =) ur smile's niz.. so smile... frm ur heart kaes...

dawn.. hellos meanie dawnie... thankew for bein mean to miii... hmph... well thanks... for teaching mii hw to turf lols.. n organizing such a wonderful camp... n being short's not my fault...=P n smile kaes... coz u look nicer tat wae without ur mean look..

limyuan... heyy hello the sec three on my left.. u r realli niz... n smiley.. n patient wiv ber n xuanie... thanks for everything, frm answering my weird questions n agreein to take fotos... =) smile n good luckk...

tausah... hie... hellos.. hahas.. thanks for bein in the weekimwee thingy, so sorrie i failed the thing... -.- n thankew for being so patient wiv mii when i asked u hw to fold scarf n stuff ... THRU msn.. hehees... n slp earlier kaes... n dun b so taufik crazee pls... sly is niz too u noe... hahas.. n rmb KINGFISHER is nice... so long... =)

shuhui... hello snr of ting... hees... u look scary sumtimes u noe, when u were eethan... but thankew newaez for being such a niz QM n being my platoon's commando... whee~ keep ur 's' properly!!! n stay cool... =)) wiv smiles..

atee... heyy... u realli haf talent u noe.. just too bad u din want to tak epart in teen idol... hahas.. n thankew for the nice nice cordial in camp n the food... thanks for the blogs' entries tat are so abstract, tat my lit may improve... -.- smile!! =))

jialin... heyy... thankew for acting so convinceing in the camp's nite treasure hunt... n everything... n for being so shuang kuai when ting n i wanted to atke ur foto... =)) u r not so quiet are u? smile =))

paupau... hello.. footdrill commander... sorrie for being so blur n slow.. hees sorrie.. oh n thankew for the food in the 'bbq' n for having extra footdrill lessons for sec ones... thankss... n smile kaes... cute one u've got =)

yunpei... hie.. footdrill commander... sorrie too for my slow reaction n stuff... n thankew for helpin mii after footdrill wiv my i-dunno-wat-to-call kicks... thanks a million!!! for being sooooo patient... =)) smile... niz one u've got!

ongying... hellos.. thankew for the nice camp u organized and goin ard to check tents...jiayou!!! n ermz can u try to make ur blog understandable sumtimes? too cheem... hahas ...n smile... =) it is a beautiful smile so =)) more!!

shuang...thankew for breaking tat stone for my platoon while we were turfing n some of the tings u did... wat u can do we oso can do... just tat we r still trying... =)) smiles kaes.. n ermz can i take a foto of u?? wiv tat smile... =))

tracy... thankew for everything... my temporary shepherd... u r realli niz n on task.. dun worrie abt wat others tinkk of u... God loves you- unconditionally! n thanks for inviting mii to ur church n led mii into knowing God.. u can nv noe hw much it changed my life... =) smile... kk... u look lyk a slim garfield...satisfied?? =)) thanks for ur christmas card... =))

wennie.. heyy...thanks for ur christmas card!! =)) n for talkin to mii online n stuff n being happi wiv mii... ( size2 aint small kaes) when u feel left out just msg mii... =)) n smile ... =)(though u r alreadi smiling lots)hahas..

mingky... the meano ego... told u dun read vic's blog still read..-.- thankew for being the supervisor for the sec one's hostess badge n stuff lols.. n passin the hp thingy to the sec3s nt there... =)) u takkaire of ur ego, make sure it doesnt burst... hahahas.. smile though...ok lol... ego smile oso can...

charmaine n denise... heyy thankeww for everything... yepps.. n to denise... thanks for being my mortal!! =) both of u all stay the same n smile too!!! =)) identical smiles are niz...

joanne.. heyy... thanks for the things u haf done... u r realli niz... my fren saes so... during x-country, she was in the same stn as u.. in sjab... stay niz wiv ur sweet smiles!!! =))

done wiv sec 3s???

chieh hwee!! *jumps up n down since u sae i m realli veri short* whey... thankew for being so funni n loving bananas so much... whahahahah... oh thanks for all the tym spent in "ding jui" wiv u... ahhas... u r so funni... oh n sorrie coz atfirst i dunno hw to pronounce ur name den i went ard "a-n-g-c-h-i-e-h-h-w-e-e" hees... atleast i noe hw to spell ur name lols... i'll miss you!!! n smile... =) n stay funni n happi

emily!!! *waves until my hand goin to dropp off* thankew for being such a niz p.s... n tellin mi nt to cry on farewell.. thanks for ur niz flower... n for being so patient wiv mii this whole yr... wiv my blurness n stuff... hees... n i still rmb u n mer came to my class to find mii to go for cca... the 1 st time... thankew... n gd luck n =))

well n to all the other sec4s... thanks so much too... but theres just lyk tooooooooo mannnni of uuuu to write thanks to.. so thankew to :
dory, weijie, peiyi,rachelzeng, racheltan, nghuiyi, tinghuiyi, gracia, joyce, jeslyn, amelia, hweebing, jingxiu, shiduan, mel, huixin, siokchen, sokboon, yukki, clara, kailing, rina, xiaolee, joanna, jade, shaozhi, regina, yiwen, huiying, deborah and charlene!!!
THANKS!!!! n i'll miss u all!!! gd luck!!!

LOOONG ENTRY...i started blogging an hr ago...

=(

2004-12-30T01:18:00.000+02:00

ant ish saddd... strawberry ish down.... the star isnt shining....

fluff has disappeared... FLUFF...where are you???

Evil miii left him in a haversack dis morning... n now hes gone....

=( =( stupid evil strawberry ant =( =(

i shld haf gotten him out since i wasnt goin out after all

=( =( irresponsible mean star =( =(

cant find him.... ='(

n now hes alone....

in the dark nite........

X)

2004-12-28T22:01:00.000+02:00

i dunno how to react... this ish so sadddd frm the death toll of 22000, it has now risen to 60000...ohman..wat a lot of lives... i realli dunno hw i shld react to dis.... i m SHOCKED...................
but finished my maths algebra ws.... yayyy!!! =) wiv sum help frm kiwi vic... hahas.. though theres still some which i still dunno hw to do... n while the tym in toa payoh, i almost cried.. atfirst i stopped in my tracks when i heard THAT song so we walked away n THAT song played again.... errrr -_-''' den kiwi vic n mii got warned by the librarian twice... heehees..oops.. hah... den we realized tat her bag suits miii n my bag suits her so we decided to change bags.... n everyone else tinkks so tooo hahas... yay.. so nw theres the commonwealth essay n theres still lots of tings to do haha.. as usual... but nvm =)) shall thank ppl on another dae.... wheee~ another happi dae that ish without reason.....=)=)=)

oh............

2004-12-27T16:59:00.000+02:00

can u believe it??? ard 22000 ppl are DEAD... because of the earthquakes n the tsunami... its so hard to believe... one minute they were dere well n alive, next they just left us... everyone.... i guess my family ish lucki.... my sis got hm frm taiwan n the earthquake in taiwan started... my brother came back from thailand n all this happened....thankew God for everything! =) but i cant help feelin sadd... nt onli ish e 22000 ppl gone... they haf left behind their loved ones... n i noe they must b hurting pretty much nw.... n it will take time to heal the wounds.... 22000 it must haf affected a lot more ppl too... yepps.. i tinkk we shld cherish life more... n live each to e fullest.... just imagine tml u r goin to die.... wat mani tings could u haf done?? hmmmmmmmmmmmm................. i shall sae a lil prayer for the ppl who lost their loved ones....***** LIFE ISH PRECIOUS so TREASURE IT!!!

farewelll.

2004-12-23T11:32:00.000+02:00

i totalli lost control of my heart... but atleast i din cry durin e perfomance =)).... but when e sec2s sang e song, sec3s sang e song n durin guides idol... i cried... wiv no control... i dunno why... its just tat empty feelin... the fact tat abt 30 over ppl are GONE... n everiting they've done for mii n the mark they've left in my life.. then my tears started rollin... silentli they'll fall... =( lucki for sum parts renice n vic took up posters n covered mii while i wipe my tears away... THANKEW!!! my tears was just rolling down when e farewell concert was about to end... sorrie vic for wetting ur shirt... SORRIE!! and as the songs played on, images of sec4s were just flashin n i din even noe wat i was doin....i'll spread my wings n i'll learn how to fly, i'll do wat it takes till i touch the sky.... out of the darkness n into the sun, but i wun forget all the ones tat i loved...' i'm cryin nw, dunno y too... chieh hwee hugged mii, n said tat i was realli short... but tat made mii cry harder n i almost made her cry... second time she hugged mii, more tears rolled... ahhhhh!! i tink i'll cry next yr n embarass myself again....n i tink it will b harder than dis time....but we'll haf to move on...'gotta kip moving on, moving on' shall stop tokin abt it if nt i will becum dehydrated... =PpPpP ytd was a veri bZ dae... i managed to bring everything.... except my breakfast... hehes.. it was on my couch...but nvm.. meiting was havin a tummyache... so we made her sit down... n drink water till she was sick of drinking water... hah.. get well soon!!! N drink lots of water...=)) oh durin e uniform check loads of tings happened... i was standing there with a plait n a pony taill.. =P must haf been so comical.. chieh hwee was oso veri funni coz her glove was obstructing her frm doin lots of tings... huibin came late... hahas.. n her trefoil was smashed n coulnt b opened... our patrol sure has lots of problems... hees... den durin e rehearsal chieh hwee marched too much... i was strugglin nt to laf... hahas.. so cute.. but i tinkk i'll do tat too... =X i din faint u noe... but a few sec ones did... 'fainting fairies' hahs.. n chieh hwee was asking mii while the ceremony was goin on " anthea, r u ok?" do i look so nt ok?? hmmmmmmmmmm nvm... oh emily gaf us all a flower... handmade!!! so sweet... n chieh hwee gaf us A SLIPPER wiv our names on it n a keychain... wiv a letter... ohhh... n sharlene got her secret desire.... she stirred the cordail.. hahs... during lunch was very bz... after servin the sec4s n ms ng.. i hanged out at the drinks dispenser.... and added cordial n stuff... den got shooed away to eat lunch... but i went to gif tissy the bimbo wiv an ego her prezzie...n she said shes soooo excited wiv the PINK hairband... hahs.. i'll miss her too... den i went back to drinks dispenser den started clearin up... so i missed lunch as well...again...ohwells den it was a rush to change clothes for the concert.... well, it was sad... den after tat... i went to get the cake for shar... while my tears were still rollin... shldnt haf done tat... bad move.. ms ng n ms ong were lyk " r u ok?" " go n wash ur eyes.." n ms ong was tryin nt to laf at miii... X) while doin cleanin up... we made shar go throw E BIG SMELLY DISGUSTING garbage... well, accordin to her, e garbage was lyk tat... =) den we lighted e cake n when she came back we sang happy bdae to her... =)) n she was smiling!!!! n she almost cried.. n hugged everi1 of us... =)) ohh den guess wat? we took loads of fotos... retarded poses n sec2s joined e sec ones...hahas... charis n regina joined us for the human chair pic... so RETARDED!!!! i felt so tired when i reach hm at 8 tat i bathed, went online for a while n SLEPT till this mornin... so there goes my dinner... hahs... but i drank 4 packets of ice lemon t u noe... =)) i felt realli crazee ytd.. i was veri veri bZ.... den i was veri veri sad... but had to change my mood into HAPPY... =) so weird.. CHIEH HWEE N EMILY!!! I'LL MISS U ALL!!! U all beta cum back! TISSY TOO... n aLL E SEC4s.. this is a command... hahas.. n SMILES>>=)=)=)
P.S: shar... ish dis LOONNG enuf?

bZ dae

2004-12-18T20:04:00.000+02:00

=) heees.... so happi... i had footdrill todae... informal footdrill!!! hees... so funnn... at first was alone at ard 7, den at ard 8 valerie joined miii den in the end up loads of sec ones had footdrill together... =)) yay!! at least ting said i improved but... i'm still a bit slow.... n blurr.... n i dunno hw to do e command "berhanti".... alwaes stop wrongli... -.- hmmmmmmmmmm after tat ard 12 plus we learned e dance... i'm still a bit blurr wiv e dance n guess wat? i'm in e first row... ahhhhh!!!! finalli at ard 3, i went home... seriousli, i'm gettin sick of sch.... i was there ytd, e dae b4 n todae....hmmmmmm.... nvm.... i feel so happi todae though a bit tired coz i slept at 2 n woke up at 5..... X) shall go n learn hw to sing e song for farewell.... e song ish so niz... =)but i tink i shall nt sing... i feel lyk cryin whenever i sing a song tat ish meant for farewelll... hw... hmmmmmmmmmm later i cry like so -_-''' dat dae i tried to sing e song i composed den i started cryin lol... hmmmmmmmmm... coz images of sec4s was flashing thru my head... one by one.... though i'm nt close to em... but it ish just lyk so sadd inside my heart, i feel SAD n my eyes started tearing.... hw? later on farewell i cry.... den so embarassing.... =S nvm.... ant wun cry... ant wun cry... ANT WUN CRY!!!! yepps...=)) i shall try nt 2 cry... =) ohh... yepps...ant shall practice footdrill on tuesdae... i'll start at 8... Vic! Rmb horh... thankeWWWwwww!!! FOOTDRILL RAWKS!!!! but hmmmmmmm my footdrill ish so pathEtic.... so shall jiayou!!! =) practice makes perfect!! yay!! ant shall work hard...lyk the ants..

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway
[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

so niz!! lurve this song to bits...=)

Blurrr ant....=X

2004-12-17T16:19:00.000+02:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! ant ish veri veri veri blurrrrr todae!!!!! ant did lots of BLURRRR tings todae... ahhhhh n my reaction was slow... -duhz- i was alwaez slow =X had footdrill n was slow... n my leg wasnt 90 degree =( hmmmmmmm den kip doin it after footdrill....wiv yunpei den e sec1s.... i was doin it in coro u noe, den ting n shar disowned mii coz i was embarassing them... hehes.... N i tink i'm chao blurrr todae.... coz i lost my handfone!!!! ahhhhh!!! so blurrr ahhhhh!!! left it in bus 67.....i lost my wallet lyk 1 mth ago?!!! sheesh- ok, ant admits tat she ish blurrr - i h8 it when i feel blurr... seems lyk nth ish right n i feel lost... n all i can sae ish "huh?!!!?" hmph... nvm.... vic tinks its just becoz i'm tired todae... mayb i m... hehes.. made vic n shar got to sch at 10 ytd.... heees... sorrie... n for making e both of u shop for 6 hrs... sorrie... but hey we managed to buy all e prezzies......i admit e 's' was givin us loads of trouble but hey, we did it... n dun b so pissed @ wen coz she just told us she tinks shuanghong's goin for cca......n dun kill oomph!!! =) newaez.... THANKEwwwwwwWWWWwwww!!!! =) yayyy!! ant feels happi...nw.. though still feel blur... gave out everiting i bought le... =)) so HAPPY!!! smiles !!! =)) yay! i miss my handfone.... =S hmmmmmmmmmmmm hw can i b so blur to lose my hp? nvm.... i shall go n WAKE UP!!!! =)))

oWww

2004-12-14T18:17:00.000+02:00

i feel horrible nw... my tummy hurts lots =X n i'm runnin a fever nw.. =( but newaez it was bearable just nw... in cca n when i did sum shoppin... vic, shar n mii went earlier todae around 7... to undo e ting n b4 cca, there was this cat which kip circling ard my feet... it was realli cute ^^ but nevertheless quite scary coz its tail was up in the air n veri stifff @.O... ohh i vomitted water?!? tats so weird... they were lyk acidic tasting water... *_* yepps n shopping wasnt for mii as usual... oh n i made shar n vic walk up n down n up n down wiv mii... so sorrie... i noe ur feet must be hurtin... sorrie...i used an hr plus to get hm frm woodlands... the land wiv a lot of woods... i bought sum stuff for ppl den i found tat i wasnt realli fair to other ppl so nw i haf to buy things soon...n i'm lyk totalli broken.... hic...=) but nvm... tink of smiles!!! but mayb there wun be smiles...hmmmmmm.... ohhh yepps...i realli haf lots of tings to do.. hmmmmm n sth's goin wrong again...nt wiv mii tink.... shall work on e problem to solve it... Misunderstanding does cause a lot unwanted happiness btwn ppl... hmmm shall do all this tml if i feel better.... =))) tml i'll b up n running.... yay!! k, shall go n rest...so i'll b able to do lots of tings tml... =)) i'll go for dinner nw... sheesh- i just realized e onli ting i ate todae was a packet of ice lemon t n an ice-cream... y dun i feel hungry? ?_-

a bbq tat was nt a bbq

2004-12-12T00:45:00.000+02:00

heees... went for coy2's 'bbq' ytd.. it was supposed to b a bbq but it turned out we had to book the pit 2 weeks in advance.. ooh... so e sec3s spent e whole afternoon cOOking... so niz... =)) kaes i was realli confused abt the bbq coz of my dear pl chiehhwee... she msg-ed mi den said it ws onli for sec4s den ytd she told mii it was 4 everione -.-''' but i went newaes... oh the atmosphere was a bit weird... hahs.. we played badminton n captain's ball lol...hic... n paupau n limyuan went hm earli though they were e organizers!!! to watch tv... hahas...oh den played wiv sparkers... quite niz.. it has been very long since i played them...=)) but den it started to rain... so we kinda played em in the drizzle.... i was e last to leave... hees...thankeWWw yibing for stayin wiv miii...=)) it was quite funnn... lol.. hic =)newaez tried to catch atee at the heeren but couldnt...=( i told my dad i nid to get there by 8 but he kip stoppin here n there to do things n i managed to get to the heeren at 11 -.-''' but nvm... i looked at all e christmas lites!!! =)) it was beautiful... i cant believe it... christmas ish cuming... i just LURVE christmas...it seems lyk a break frm reality u noe.. the fact that santa claus exist..although it mite nt b true hu cares... i just lurve it... n hees...the atmosphere makes mii feel so warm n niz... i feel tat i'm in a storybk... =)) hahas... christmas ish niz... =)) wishing santa claus ish true!!! oh... speaking of wishes... shar n my wishes under the shooting star came true!!!! X) so happi... at least i tink my wish came true... lol...but i'm still happi todae... wiv no reason, n e stars r shining brite tonite... as usual...^^

hmmmm....

2004-12-08T17:16:00.000+02:00

campsick...arghh.... nw milo without condense milk reminds miii of camp...hmmmm... nvm...=)) camp RAwKs... hehes... oh ya.. i tot i lost fluff ytd... was soooooo worried... but in the end.. it was in my washing machine... hic...ke lian de fluff... lurve ya...=) ohkaes... hmmm.. u noe i tink this yr's camp was a success... it changed mani ppl perspective of guides!!! =) n sec2s are gettin more serious... but erm... the tot tat next yr as sec2s, i'll haf to get serious ish nt welcuming... hehes...=P oh well... shldnt tink of e future... shld look at the present!! u live for todae.. =)) errr... i'm feelin kind of stupid standin infront of e mirror n doin footdrill...n e ting ish... i dun even rmb e commands... hehes.... den when i learn e commands.. i forget to coordinate wiv my hands n legs.... arggggh... so hmph....nvm... i'll get it rite sumdae...=)) been blogsurfing todae..somthing's goin on!!! wiv e sec4s n ms ng... they seem troubled n things looked serious....but i dunno wats it...=X oh yah...im up to sth again... hees... i'm goin to do it even if it means i'll b broke=)) n vic-ki has offered to donated $$ to mi.. yay!! i was quite down dis mornin =( coz.. my veri 'smart' maid threw away e frenship bands i made!!!! Ahhhh!! im stil fumin mad wiv her...=( now... nt onli do i haf to redo e cards but e frenship bands tooo... hmMmMmMmMmM.....but i sorted it out... i'll just haf to drop by popular tml n get e materials...yupz... nth i can do... screamin n cryin are onli waes to vent our frustrations, after ventin, we still haf to face reality.... n reality alwaez hurts....budden im happi nw... =) for no apparent reason...hic... i tink everi1's so enthu abt guides nw.... its so....WOW! =)) shall sae a prayer 4 everi1 in guides tonite... =) hope there will be shimmering stars again....*****

thankewwWWWwwwwwss

2004-12-06T03:48:00.000+02:00

hmmm...felt a nid to thank ppl in guides camp... i noe i abit slow... but.... newaez....
first of all... i'll thank my ever so niz platooon...
to my dearest pl, lynnn.... a BIG thankeuuu!! for goin to the CoHs n then brief us when u came back... though u were tired lyk the rest of us... n the fact that u didnt haf time for supper...n everiting u've done for us...i reslli appreciated u... n 4 eatin sum of my food 4 me.... =)THANKEW! lurv ya lots.... sorrie if i caused ne trouble... =P
clairey... my dearest ps!! thankew... for everiting u've done... for turfing so hard.. n goin marketing!!! =) n for bein so stern n on task... i tink it was becoz of u, we didnt slack... hehees... n thankewwwwww 4 bringin cookie along wiv u everywhere u go on ur platoon identity...U made sure everyone was well n niz... thankEwwwWWwww u were there, b4 n durin camp.... =) xie xie le... sorrrie if i caused any trouble...
hongling.... my nicey dearie sec2!!! thanks a million... u were alwaez there 4 us, when e pl n ps were gone!!! thankewwwww 4 layin the tant 4 us.... relli thankewww... u ensured that we were slpin welll... snugged n warm... =)) n thankew 4 eating my egg 4 mi... =) n u were realli niz... glad tat u didnt get snappy n alll... soorrie to cause u any trouble.... Miss u! thanKew
shaOwen.... my fellow sec1 recruit... thanks 4 being there!!! by my side... n doin lotsa things wiv miii n 4 miii.... thankewwww 4 takin e total defence badge with me... n tyin e shoe rack with miii.... =)) n eatin lots.... plus drinkin lots... so we didnt haf to throw any food away... thankEwwww.....
To everi1 of u in Lancier!!!! if there wasnt all of u there... lancier wouldnt haf been lancier... u stayed there true.... thru e 4 daes... no matter wat unlucki things happened to us... we didnt gif up... we RAWKSSSS!!!! LURVEEEEE YA!!!!
Air Force!!!! We raWks too... nvm we didnt win anything except for best sec1... racheL!!!!=) i was glad to noe everyone of u better...i understood u all better n i was fascinated by our unity... heees....thankeWWWwww to raptor's sec2ss... junice, tricia n adeline 4 goin back to sch frm coro wiv mi... after e sec1s left...had lots funn... n saw a "rare" frog specimen... fruitfull...hic... still thankin u all... n sec2s frm chinook hu stayed back to do e banner outlinin wiv miii....oops almost forgot n everi1 hu stayed back till 7 to add touchups, u noe addin e lacquer(how to spell..it cost $3.50) paint.... thAnKeW!!!!! i just want to tell u e bond we share... ish special...=) dunno hw mai thankewwwws must i sae to show how i feell... hahas...sorrie if i was troublesome... fallin down so mani times... =X
NAVY!!! thank u a lot too... =) we had inter battalion fun... n inter battalion help =) u were all gd winners! thankeWWWW!!!!! oh... shuning.... thankssssss... 4 lendin mi ur shoes.... sorrie to trouble u.... thanksssss
Sec 3s.... the camp u planned was simply fan-tas-tic... thankewww... i noe u all must haf spent a lot of time n effort in it....it was funnn... dawn, ongying, ming, wen, tracee, paupau, limyuan, denise, shu, mer, rachael, jialin, shuang, ana, yunpei, charmaine n atee... THANKEUU!!! campers saw ur hard work.. realli... we knew u slept l8... woke up earli... thankew 4 spending time to plan n organize this realli realli rawkin camp 4 uss.... n makin sure it went smoothli.... sorrie if i caused ne trouble... LURVEEE all of U!!! =)
Last but nt least.... Thank you! Ms Ng... 4 helpin everi1... u were lyk a guardian to us.. alwaes dere for us.. helpin us in the back scene... helpin e sec3s plan n ensurin everi1 ish safe n sound.... ThankeWW... thank u ms ong tooo... =))
oh ya... thank u aLL e seniors... frm sec4s onwards... u all took time to cum down n help out... n to guide us along... THANKEUUU!!!! =)))) Lurve U LOTS!!!!

did i miss out ne1? sorrie if i did...every1 hu attended e camp ish a winner n thankew... oh my.... hw many thankewws did i sae?

camp...

2004-12-04T07:03:00.000+02:00

i'mmm back... frm camp n taggin at everi1... i shld n dared to tag... =) CAmP rawkeeed bigtime... shall review it... just reviewing... shall blog abt my tots later... =))
on e first dae we had lotsa funnnn.... =) we set up e gadgets n our tents... our gadget a bit slanted but heyy... it stood 4 4 daesss... so proud of it... n had our buddy... cookie... hics... nw its nt wiv us... so sad...i tink nth went quite wrong just tat we had no mallets at first n at nite... i fell a few times... lol... n e human chair was hmmmm torturous... =S but =) we stayed on fer 21 minutes n e record was unbrokenn.... yeah!!! air force rawks!!!
second day was e most tiring 1.... had wide game at lil india... n hics couldnt finish it n couldnt find e ics at 1 stn..=( but nvm... we had xercise n most importantli... funn... had henna paintin on my hands too... at lil india arcade... n had to agree tat gals aint gd wiv maps... hehes =P... it was a treat bcuz we got to watch sg idols at e lt....wiv e big big screen n loud loud speakers!!!! =) n treasure hunt at nite was funn... i almost got kidnapped...=S e snrs acted very welll... lol... n our kerosene lamp was spoilt but still had to carry it around... hic...
third dae was oso quite funn... wiv alot of things... outdoor cookin was tiring..i was lyk in both food preparations n fireliting... kip washin my handss....n e camp fire rawkss... yup... got a pizza... wanted to share wiv e navy but dey didnt want it... n at nite.. went stargazing.... n u noe wat? saw a shooting star!!!! omg it was lyk... yupzz... too tired to lay tent at ard 3 so just went shar's tent n slept... for 2 hrss...
last dae.. sabotage was realll interestin but... i got a bump on my head n all my elbows n knees were scraped... =( budden its nt alwaes u get to b muddy... hehes... n ohman.. our tent tore...so unlucki...
overall... i tink camp was beri vei fuuuuuunnnnn n it rawkeddd.... i tink our platoon was e most troublesome 1... so sorrie... but quite painful n tiring coz i had 17 small n big injuries.... n slept lyk less dan 10 hrs in e 4 daes... ouched... n fell off e stupid staircase twice... hmph... n vomitted abit... haiz... so accident prone... hmmmmm.... but i still tink guides camp was niz... although e two best platoons werent frm our platoon... i still tot all e platoons are gd...=)) i mean wat ish important isnt e end result but e process... n i certainli learned a lot... thankieWwwwWW to all tat helped mi to learn!!! n i tink no matter wat air force rawked n we bonded realli well... i tink everi1 hu took part in e camp ish a winner... becoz we challenged our own limits... n we didnt break down =)=) o ya... e food served was niz... n e games were funn.... did i 4get to mention netin? hmmm....

.......

2004-11-26T20:21:00.000+02:00

for the last 5 daes... i can onli sae 5 words.. tired..tired..tired..tired..tired..did lotsa thingss.. =) but hmmmm ;( vomitted ytd... haix... trainin myself to eat more... Jia Shui orh!!! oh ya.. learnt hw to make banners, scarfs n flags... so funn... but hmmm tired... admist the bustling energy... i was wondering....everibody looks busy... everibody seems to b doin sth...n all of them were tinkin abt the same thing- camp.. it seems niz... n mayb a bit fascinating.. to mi... =) because no matter wat differences everi1 seems to haf, we will be together.. for a common goal.. yupps... i tink tats y guides rawk...

bought bks..

2004-11-19T20:06:00.000+02:00

yup...went to sch todae... bought books... quite heavy n cheap..after tat gave my kor's fren... to bring e bks hm... hahas..."he sent my books hm" den supposed to meet @ 1 wiv my platoon's members... but couldnt find them...finalli @ 1.15 dey came...lucky mi...i almost went hm... hehes...i was dere lyk 12.40...lol...but e ps n pl were M.I.A..however...we managed to tie up the loose ends of e gadgets n chose wat to cook for our outdoor cookin..=) saw a lot of sec4s... dey hafin their last paper todae..chem...n i remembered tat i lost the 32 cards...=( hmmm... haf to make them soon... hmm....mayb it'll b nicer dis time.... hope so... =)=) about one more wk to camp!!! jiayou!!

2003 rawks!

2004-11-17T16:40:00.000+02:00

went back to fpps..wiv weiting,belle, ccw n ashma....for e family dae.. jas,janice,ivy,yiru n dustbin went back too...it was so leng qing... nobody de...last yr's definiteli a blast compared to this yr..=)) mwahahha.. hehes.. a bit mean... o ya.. kaiying,peiqi n sze gek,karin came too... dey veri "earli"... n we quite lame... coz ccw, belle n ashma played hopscotch... hehes... n belle fell...so dustbin helped her play sum..so uneventful...not like last yr..so fun... 2003 rawks!!! mdm wong treated us to fishballs ooo n i ate 2 ice-creams..=)) i was just tinkin tat it was just lyk ytd tat i was primary 1 n nw poof! in sec 1.... time realli flies... n it is realli time tat makes us grow...is it realli time tat makes us grow? or is it the events tat take place durin all the time tat passed? haf i realli spent my time wiseli... haf i misused it? i tink frm now on i shld spent my time like these few daes... it had been meaningful n fun...i realli feel contented...=)=)=)i should try to live everidae wiseli...because nobody noes when we will die... n imagine i'll die tomorrow... leaving a lot of things undone... which could haf been done today... actualli tats wat i was tinkin when i sat on the floor n lookin @ everi1 around mi, playin n makin a lot of noise... i wonder at tat time wat had been on their minds...hmmm... i deleted my post tat i put on ytd... i made a promise to myself to blog all the gd things tat happen to mi...no more sad things... a promise tat will be mine to keep...i shld appreciate all e gd tings n let all the bad tings diappear as my tears dries up =) n of course... learn frm my mistakes..n perhaps... try to forget...

malaysia...

2004-11-12T21:16:00.000+02:00

went malaysia...wiv my sis... bought loads of things... =) so contented... i was just wonderin if there were differences btwn malaysians n us... but i tink if i realli ignored everiting n listened to their hearts n gestures... dere is actualli no difference...its a fact tat we all are humans... wiv the same tinkin..its just tat the way we speak n react to different things tat realli make us US... well...i tink tats why the world is so special... it is so unique n cool nt onli bcuz of its colors but oso of the different ppl we haf... wiv no bad guys, there'll b no nid for heroes.... no hungry ppl, no cooks n chefs?actualli we r a cycle... we cause things to happen... just that we are not aware...=) mayb its bcuz we nid to blog that blogger.com is created... isnt tat so?

Fairytales...

2004-11-09T18:48:00.000+02:00

just watched princess diaries 2: royal engagement....it was just sweet yet funni =)) niz!

O of Life

2004-11-06T22:55:00.000+02:00

went to e circle of life thingy n saw my primary sch's p1 students... dey were like so tiny... sooooo cute=) but as usual, the socks still looks horrible...n got sum comments frm ms ng abt e sec1s behaviour... she said the usual stuff...nth much... she said tat we nv volunteer to haf pictures drawn on our face.... rachael n i were lyk... arent dey suppose to cum n draw for us...we were waitin...hmmmm....newaez was quite happi todae..for apparent no reason..n as usual... weird questions popped out to make mi tink....=@ i was just tinkin... nature... she ish a part of everything? forests...animals... insects... mountains...rivers...lakes... almost everithing... den ish she part of us? or are we part of her? hmmm... humans...our evolution frm monkeys? was dis planned by her? if we r part of nature den why are we destroyin nature? n why must we preserve n conserve nature? shouldnt we let nature takes its own course...but we definiteli can stop ppl frm destroyin nature....so y dun we juz leave everithing wat they used to b...i tink its just bcoz humans are curious and we want to find out... n perphaps sum ppl destroy nature, which ish part of us, just bcoz of $$$... their greed... wow... tats sooo scary... imagine how far a man can go bcause of greed... well well well... den did mother nature plant all e emotions, includin greed into Man? n why onli us? imagine a plant wiv emotions...hhaahas...=) wait a minute... are we part of nature? i'm nt sure...hmmm...mayb i'll sae a prayer for nature too... hehes...i tink i'm sayin a lot of prayers nowadays... hmm... mayb i shld just pray for everi1....=)*glad tat i'm alive n stars are still shining brite(are stars part of nature?)*

Choral Nite...

2004-11-04T01:38:00.000+02:00

Wheeee~ Choral nite IS over!!! =) had a fantastic time.. everything went well... nooooo hiccups... so proud of myself..oops... so pleased... =PpPpP the day b4, the fundraising was fun too... e cookies jolyn made were niz... yummi... but i had sore throat so ate 1 onli... it was sweeeeet...e yummiest ting was e brownies ros n abt 1/3 of e class made... so chocolatey... mmmm... enuf of food... choral nite was fun... n si chen was funni..."ah boy ah!" every1 was lafin soo hard... i was in e changin room n i could hear the crowd... hehes... but its so mean to laf at her... hmmm...but she ISH just so eerie... newaez ms ng finalli confirmed tat dere r 33(nt 32 nor 34)sec4 snrs... mrs yong was rite! BUT she told mi tat 2 of e 33 are "problematic" n sec1s haf nv seen them b4 so if i was makin prezzies, 31 would b enuf... well...it was kinda l8.. coz my 32 frenship bands were done... = n NOW there is like this big problem... hmmm... i made 32 cards too... n every card has a name... so hu ish 1 of e problematic ones????????? hmmmm....off to tink.....

Juz wonderin....

2004-10-30T21:27:00.000+02:00

i dunno y but todae juz seems so comfortable, wiv e rain n all... wiv e slight wind against my face...n i m juz lookin at stars outside my window... in tat dark n mysterious sky...i m feelin sooo comfortable n fortunate...i was jus wonderin and wishin upon a star, e 1 shinin soo brite, tat i will foreva b soo happi...=)=)=) all my muscle aches are gone...n nt stressed at all!!! i sold 14 boxes of guides cookies in all... =) but i muz deliver 3 boxes...so glad... i sold more than i had wished.... the stars are all so brite n so faraway...no matter wat happens dey wil alwaez b there, guidin everi1...dey are so strong... i was juz wonderin wil i b so strong everidae... so happi despite all e setbacks i will haf to face in my life....m i tinkin too much? hm.... but i haf gone thru a lot in the 13 yrs n 10 mths n 4 daes...well... i will if i tink i will... so i will.. hehes.... =) may the guardian star b wiv u !!

Things arent so bad..

2004-10-28T21:38:00.000+02:00

todae took pics of snrs le... got nth beta to do so tot of makin acollage of guides.... n................................ todae... i lost my wallet.... hm... lost about 32 bucks...n my ez-link card...=( den my sis onli refunded mi 22 bucks... at first i was tinkin... nvm lol... wat could i do? no use cryin over spilt milk, rite? den to my outmost surprise... when i went 4 dinner, i met my dearie ahma... hu dotes on mi a lot a lot n a lot... =) n my sis toldher i lost my wallet... n guess wat? she stuffed 2 $50 notes into my pocket... i tried to rejected it....but no avail...sumore she lie... she sae she gif mi $32... when i came home... i took it out n realized she gave mi a hundred bucks...well...can b counted as yin huo de fu... rite? i juz feel so fortunate and lucki...everyting tat happens do haf a reason... i guess... n the world ish nt tat unfair as it seems to b... it ish unfair to us... in our eyes bcoz... we r humans... n humans by nature will desire 4 sumthing n wish 4 sumting so when we dun get our way or get the things tat we wan.. we define the world as unfair...=P tats wat i tink lol...n 4 juz 2dae... i learnt sumthing... i muz try not to b so blurrr...haiz... i dun even rmb where i left my wallet n when i lost it lol...hehez...blurr...0.o newaez i wonder how i'll deal wiv my green green jnrs next yr...i oreadi soo blurr... l8er wu ren zi di... hm... i was realli realli 'broken' juz nw...my dis wk allowance was spent on snrs le... den my cookie $$$ was in my wallet... i was scared no more cookiess 4 mi....but luckili...i can buy even more cookies nw... n i managed to ask abt 6 ppl todae to buy cookies 2...=) sense of accomplishment... was feelin guilty after noein e sec4s sold so mani... n i bot onli 1.... =S nw atleast not so guilty.... clear conscience.... did my best... but sum nt confirm.... newaez... tings arent alwaez soo bad... chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.... so smart todae... use so mani chinese....=) wil sae my prayers wiv a smile.... feelin so xin fu nw....

soooo tired....

2004-10-27T19:28:00.000+02:00

i m so worn out nw...slept @ 2 ytd.... yawnz... but i managed to wrapped 18 ferrero rocher n finish 18 bkmarks n all e cards... yupz...finalli.... den juz nw durin cca gave out e prezzies to my snrs le... xcept s4s coz haven finish =PpPpPpP sum of e snrs look surprize... sum are happi... i tink... frm my point of view.... atleast they smiled...i tink ne1 hu smiles look niz... n i tink e most most most wonderful ting in the world is a smile... imagine the world without ne smiles...i'd rather die... sooo happi dey smiled.... =) to c sum1 smile makes mi smile 2... haha...hm....yawnz....i'm realli veri tired... crack crack crack... n e prezzies didnt turn out as niz as i wanted them to b.... newaez hu cares i did my best... yes... i did...but i tink dey deserved sth beta...hmm... sry lol... my art is juz horrrrible... hehe..=S i realli hope my snrs noe we appreciate em.. bcoz i tink i noe how 1 would feel if she has done a lot of tings thru out e yr for sum ppl yet dey dun appreciate... sumtimes tat sum1 will feel against e world...bcoz she will tink: y m i alwaez e one hu do this n tat? n sumtimes wiv e intense pressure, dey mite juz break down... lol...=P in tat pressure cookeR... hmm....sumtimes i feel so too... but as u can c... after my long long tinkin time....i will nt feel bad... perphaps i'm juz born optimistic or mayb i'm born to tink...well... hu noes... juz hope my snrs wont eva feel down...=) cross my fingers... dey muz rawk on n smile more... hmm... i found another goal in life... to make ppl smile!!! but quite impossible...juz haf to try lol... =) c juz a lil ting can make wonders... u can create a smile... soooo rmb ur prayers... believe in em...

Thinkin Day...

2004-10-23T02:00:00.000+02:00

hmmm...after ytd... i tot more... hmm... mayb its gd for us to b hurt so tat after all the hurtin, we wil grow and perphaps... it is tat after hurtin tat we learn hw to deal wiv it and juz mayb after all the hurt we feel, we wil be stronger... yupz..n i was juz tinkin if sum ppl hus been hurt may feel disappointed at the world... n the person may juz ends up hating the world...well... if it cums to a point tat everi1 hates everibody wont the world be a colourless place? it would be a veri sad place i guess... n when these ppl juz finalli untie the knot in the heart... dey wil juz realize the the wonderful things they missed all the time when they decided to hate... n it was bcoz they acted impulsiveli... welll... i'm soo glad i tot abt it n dcided to look at it frm a different perspective... i lurve the world... its juz sooo fascinating.... everiting seems to haf a reason... it was all created by the same hand... lol...=)

Gloomy-Happy

2004-10-22T20:35:00.000+02:00

soooooooooooooo malu..... sms wrongli... to ms ng.........=S sumore ish veri weird msg den she sae i cute? ?-? huh.... newaez suppose she ish lafin... atleast she smiled... i guess...so lol... todae sharlene n i did 24 lil cards, 96 stars n finished writin msg 4 sec3 n 4s... =) super happi... but one ting... scared later seniors dun like... :l dunno... mayb i m juz scared tat i will b hurt if dey dun like it... diff frm when i decided to do it... i tot it was juz buyin sth for em but i was wrong... i realised while i m carryin out the whole ting... i not onli put in my time, effort and money... i put in my feelings too i guess... i'm juz sooo emotional... lol... so i'm confused.... n in the process... dragged sharlene into e gloomy mood too... =( sry... well... we dun realli can control wat dey tink... we alwaez tink we noe wat other people shld feel n when dey dun feel wat we shld... sumtimes... juz sumtimes we feel hurt.... well but most of the times we dun realize we too behave diff frm wat ppl wan us to behave... n we sumtimes hurt ppl too... well so i guess i dun realli haf the rite to feel hurt...hm.... yupz.... i did my best... if dey dun like nt my fault... =P hmm.... i'm happi again...lol... wat i feel shld nt be affected by other ppl.... V yupz...

So contented....

2004-10-20T02:26:00.000+02:00

I'm soooo soooo sooooo happi 2dae coz.... i finished 30 frenship bands... i finished my task!!! =) cant help grinnin.... but *yawns* i'm so tired n sleepy nw.........=o wiv lotsa achin... xpecialli my neck... but well... i finished it!!! ;) but uh oh theres one small yet major problem... hmz.... the frenship bands fit my wrist... but well it fit the sec4s? haiz.... dun care le... i did my best... so i'm sooo proud of myself.... n my seniors... 7 of them clinched the President Guides Award o.... Impressive... =) so happi for them... n so proud.... oopz... but i'm still proud of my seniors who tried but didnt get the award... they did try u noe... they did their best and the result dun realli matters... =) in my heart... i tink all of them oreadi haf my award given to them... hehes... imagine..... anthea guides awards...hahas... well nt that awespirin i guess... but i m so =).... didnt find a reason for mi to =(.... though my results are sooooo bad.... hm... i did my best... i'll improve... one dae... but i passed.... =) tats gd enuf for mi... so i m veri veri contented... stil got a bit of blues frm 'missin' my sec4s... but shld will get over it quite soon....tats mi... i've said my prayers tonite... rmb urs... sumone mite need it tonite.... smilez =)

Seniors RaWks

2004-10-18T21:09:00.000+02:00

i'm puzzled =(...dunno y but hm... i miss my sec 4 seniors... even bfore they leave the sch... weird weird de... dey haven leave but i'm scared tat i'll miss em... :S... dunno y... but my heart.. is tellin mi to b sad...so i'm a bit moodi... i dun relli noe e sec4 guides tat well... but i noe dey r veri veri niz...and totful lol... but there r sooo mani of em... there is lyk 32... hm... well, i guess its fate that dey are my seniors... so there is a realli special bond btwn us... well... i tink...without my knowin, dey haf become part of my life... fillin up a wonderful and colourful chapter... =) tats y i'l miss them lots....so hehes... i haf decided to gif em prezzies 4 all their hard work... V... Yupz...i guess after all dey haf done for us sec1s... and all the time they spent.... we shld do sumthing.. shldnt we? so i'm up to sumthing again... LoL... i'm alwaez up to sumthing or another... well... after rackin my almost rusty brains... n discussion wiv All the sec1 guides... we dcided not onli to surprise e hardworking sec4 but also all the sec3s who have put in a lot of effort after the sec4s were gone...dey rawks too.. but last but not least... we decided to show our encouragement to our dear sec2s....who will become sec3s veri veri soooon... =P haiz... so in order to get info... on wat dey lyk...i nid to ask them weird weird questions... hahas... so once again... feelin quite sad sec4s leavin soon... =( but nv mind... there will be memories... though nt a lot... it will stay with mi thru my life... i hope... hmmmm.... i'll sae a prayer for my seniors too tonite...when the guardian stars are shinin sooo brite...

Humans..humans...me...

2004-10-17T23:57:00.000+02:00

Did u sae a prayer for em? Hope u did.... mayb sumone said 1 for u...the way tings in the world work are weird.... u neva noe... so no matter how things are unfair and how bad sumone treats u, dun hold a grudge... why should u b angry or even feel helpless? nothing will come out of it, believe mi... instead u shld treat em normalli, because a lot of times we are fast to pinpoint people's mistakes but most of the time, we forget that we do these things too... we are humans and obviousli we will make mistakes...we should juz forgive and forget... in a way, we are forgiving ourselves...yupz...=PpPpP weird logic... hm... but its true.. i tink... todae... my fren n i talked abt a celebrity and said that shes a bit fake... hehes... no offence... c... i gossiped... oopz.... we were fast to sae the bad things abt her... we neglected all the gd things... human nature... no choice... or do we? hm... actualli we were in no rite to sae nething abt her coz being a celebrity is a big chore i guess... n we dun realli noe her and understand her... we could haf mistaken abt her... =( sorry....to her... her 1st impression on us was wat our judgement based on...i must remind myself not to do so nemore...its unfair to others juz as how unfair it is to us...well in wat we tink is unfair to us.... =)...its juz a perspect of her i saw... overlooked all her gd points... =l but i'm happi tat i learnt sumthing todae and learned it nw not when i haf regrets... smilez k? n.... dun forget ur little prayer... it makes a difference... lets shine briteli for those who needs us to lead em e way....

Lets Make a Difference

2004-10-16T22:35:00.000+02:00

in the distant space... in somewhere in the world... i was born an aquarius in the month of janaury.... I tend to be very emotional and everything i do is based on my feelings... i like to follow my heart, becoz my heart never lies... Despite betrayals and hurts and perhaps disappointments, i've learned to live... realli live.. as in living with a goal in life... the reason-life is not a bed of roses... no matter how unfair the world is, we must still cherish our lives....although sometimes the world is realli unfair... it took my mum away frm me... but i will believe tat my mum is in the heavens guarding over me like an angel...she ish up there waiting for me... =) when one dies...it ish not the end... it is the beginning of another life... another chapter of life, i guess... and whenever i miss her... i noe shes nt gone...i feel her presence juz as well... she is forever in my heart... eight years of memories will be with me for the rest of my life on earth... my chapter of life....therefore i haf realli accepted the fact that my mummy is gone... i had to convince myself for five years... and mayb out there, someone is still struggling with the fact that their loved ones are gone... they left...but all things are one... and while they are doing so, i understood... haha...i got 'enlightened'... lets pray together that one day, dey will understand too...lets just sae a little prayer for em and for the angels up there bfore we sleep, it sounds foolish but it might help... a small gesture can become a miracle...wonders that u nv knew... try it =) no matter how insignificant u are, dun tink u cannot make a difference, u can... juz a little prayer....